zejoekc wrote i don't kno why i started to think this way but i did.  i don't kno if my mom is really 'there' you kno. cuz i feel like i can never talk to her about anything, and when i do, she's always like 'i can't talk about that right now' and then we never talk about it again. and we always have money problems. she runs her own business, but she doesn't make that much off it, and wat she does make goes toward food and the heating bill, and electricity and stuff like that. and she has rheumatoid arthritus(sp) that has gotten really bad in the past 3 years. and she uses a walker to get around.  and tonight, i've just been thinking, that i think i might be better off living with my birth-mom or something........and she's always watching CNN to see wats going on with hilary clinton and obama and stuff, and she only lets me be on here for about an hour a day, and then i don't kno wat she expects me to do, because i could really care less right now about the election when she watches it every single day......and tonight, she said she would make popcorn for dinner which she said last night, but that never happened. and tonight, i ended up making a tuna fish sandwich for myself. i mean yea i need to learn to make food for myself, but i think im making it for myself more and more often than 15yr olds should.....(almost everyday) im sorry.    i kno this is a kind of depressing thought.

hm. i've been brought up to know how to take care of myself just in case something happens. its really hard when your parents expect a lot from you. since im the oldest, i need to live up to my parents standards with school and i pretty much cook, clean, and stuff. its hard. i know how you feel hun. but i don't understand about your birth mom or something. are you adopted? im slow so fill me in. xD

yea, but see if i did that, then she would ground me. and she takes tylenol(sp) and somthing else. yea i feel bad for her and stuff, i just- i don't want im trying to say.

ohmyguliLEANNE wrote  zejoekc wrote   i don't kno why i started to think this way but i did.  i don't kno if my mom is really 'there' you kno. cuz i feel like i can never talk to her about anything, and when i do, she's always like 'i can't talk about that right now' and then we never talk about it again. and we always have money problems. she runs her own business, but she doesn't make that much off it, and wat she does make goes toward food and the heating bill, and electricity and stuff like that. and she has rheumatoid arthritus(sp) that has gotten really bad in the past 3 years. and she uses a walker to get around.  and tonight, i've just been thinking, that i think i might be better off living with my birth-mom or something........and she's always watching CNN to see wats going on with hilary clinton and obama and stuff, and she only lets me be on here for about an hour a day, and then i don't kno wat she expects me to do, because i could really care less right now about the election when she watches it every single day......and tonight, she said she would make popcorn for dinner which she said last night, but that never happened. and tonight, i ended up making a tuna fish sandwich for myself. i mean yea i need to learn to make food for myself, but i think im making it for myself more and more often than 15yr olds should.....(almost everyday) im sorry.    i kno this is a kind of depressing thought.   hm. i've been brought up to know how to take care of myself just in case something happens. its really hard when your parents expect a lot from you. since im the oldest, i need to live up to my parents standards with school and i pretty much cook, clean, and stuff. its hard. i know how you feel hun. but i don't understand about your birth mom or something. are you adopted? im slow so fill me in. xD

yea. i am adopted. and i see my birth family. well not my birth dad......