| ♥.Alana.♥ wrote
Today has been the worst day evuur! I was on my way to college, well i fell on the bus:( It was so humiliating!! Then when i got to college, no-one talked to me, so that put me in an even worse mood, then i started thinking about all these family problems im having at the minute, and it really upset me! So when my tutor came over and asked me if i was okay, i started crying, so he then had to take me outside, and talked to me, but he was really sweet! But now he wants me to go and see the college counciler, because of all the problems im having, he says it would be better for me to talk to someone because i can get really stressed about it and its not good for my health! And lately ive been having lots of panic attack and i dont know whats up with me:( And now im really scared of what the counciler is going to say to me on friday, because i have no idea who im going to be talking to! And its guna be a complete stranger!!! Ahhh i just need to talk to someone cause im so stressed and its getting me really upset:(
Anyways, had to get that off my chest, Rant over!!
Thanks for reading :) <3
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I have had serious panic attacks. I've had exhaustion attacks. I've had the whole deal, so I know exactly where your coming from.
You think, "Whats going on? Why do I feel like this? Why can't I sort this out? Why can't anyone see that I need them?" And then you close off, and it all bottles up, and then you end up crying and shaking and being scared and nervous and anxious and hyper all at once, and you can't handle it, and then it just deflates, leaving you feeling alone and lost.
Trust me, we both know its not fun. So girrrrrl, I'm here for you! A fellow panic-attacker!
This is how I tend to manage my panic/exhaustion attacks: Write. When there is no one to talk to, just write how you feel, whats going and coursing through you. I promise, it helps. When you see that guidance counselor, don't feel afraid of them, or anxious. I know its human nature - how are you supposed to spill your entire essence and problems to someone you've never even met? Im sure it will feel a little awkward at first, but always, always remember - They are there to help you, not to judge and ridicule you. I've never seen a counselor, only a regular doctor (my attacks, panic or exhaustion, are because of my athletic devotions. i play two physically draining and strenous sports that stress and cause me to have SEVERE breakdowns and pains. its horrible) But I'm sure that this person is ready to deal with your problems, and to help your mind sort through them.
Your amazing, Alana! Don't ever forget it, even when everyone and everything seems hectic and crazy and like you can't make any sense of it. Your wonderful, and God is watching over you and helping. Just believe in yourself, girl! I know you can do it.
LOVE YOUUUUUU! :)
