Idk if you guys know this, but I'm homeschooled, sooo..

Jane was homeschooled and was my best friend.
('BFF's we always said)
She promised me that when she started real school, she wouldn't change and she'd never forget about me.
She lied.
She changed completley and completley forgot about me and ignored me.
My friend Lacey.
She was my new 'BFF."
She went to real school and promise the same thing.
"I won't change and I'll never forget you."
She changed and forgot about me.
It hurt so bad.
That's 2 friends I've lost in a year.
My friend Anna.
She was the best friend I thought I would have for FOREVER.
She ends up going to real school and does the same thing.
She promised that she wouldn't change and that she'd never forget me.
I believed that she wouldn't change.
She was always the kind of girl who was proud about who she was and would never follow trends or anything.
She forgot about me (of course)
Now, Anna had these pair of jeans that she always wore.
And she had this grey sweater she coudn't live without.
She comes to church tonight dressed in these new pair of jeans, with a pink jacket on, sperries, pearl earings and a BOW in her hair.
Anna was never the girly girl.
Pink and bows were not her thing.
and idk about where you live, but at my church and the school that she goes to, Sperries, bows and pearl earings are what the preppy kids wear.
She was like,
"My jeans just didn't look right. They were so old, so I threw them away."
The REAL Anna would NEVER do that.
The grey jacket, she said the same thing.
The REAL Anna would never throw something away cause it was aparently, 'old'
I miss the old Anna, :[[
She's changed!
Like she promised she wouldn't.
She forgot about me, like she promised she wouldn't.
she only talked to me once tonight.
The rest, she talked only to the preps that she says are her so called 'friends.'
They don't like her.
They only hang with her because she makes them look prettier.
(I heard them say that)
She's forgotten about her REAL friends.
me.
She's my 3rd 'best' friend that's forgotten about me.

Now it's getting hard to even have best friends anymore.
I feel like they're all going to ditch me.
:/


Thanks for listening to this CRAZY long rant.
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any words of advice?

Or your own stories you'd like to share?

Thanks, Denise, :]

And holy crap.
That line from their song is my Facebook status.
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Yeah, I'll TRY to talk to her.
If she doesn't just block me out like she always does.
>_>
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i know exactly how you feel!!!  ok, not exactly exactly, but i've had a very similar experience.  i'm homeschooled too, and in elementary school i had a ton of friends.  but as the years went on, one by one they all went to public school and i last track of them.  it never really bothered me that much until this year when my very best friend up and decided she wanted to go to public school.  plus she got a bf on top of that and in the last two months i've felt very left out.   i went from doing everything with her to hardly seeing her in the last month, because she spends nearly every weekend with her bf.

it's been hard because i really only have three people i call my close friends.  one is already off to public school, one is probably going next year, and the other is going to colledge next year ( but i hardly get to see her anyway).  most of september i felt really upset whenever i saw my best friend, because i could just feel how much we were growing apart.  i was at the point were i was mad at her and trying to hide it.  i got past that though, i've noticed that deep down i think she really does miss spending time with me.  i've realized things will never really be the same, but that's just a part of growing up.  it makes me sad but i realized that it's probably a good thing, it's like i'm slowing adjusting for in two years when i go to colledge.

you should talk to your friend.  it sounds like it can't get too much worse then it already has.  i missed some great opportunities to talk to my bff, and now i wished i hadn't.  i don't know if i helped any, but i know i'm glad you shared.  it lets me know i'm not the only homeschooler out there with these problems.  my name's Rachel btw, and if you ever want to talk you can PM me.