CHAPTER ONE:
The same scenery for a month now. It was pretty boring.
A month ago, I wouldn’t have ever expected to be sitting here in a hospital waiting room, nervously drumming my fingers to a song that I barely knew the words to anymore. My life was officially on hold while I waited…and waited…and waited some more. But it was taking forever. I couldn’t stand it. I’m getting tired of all the endless waiting. I wish I could just do something…but I can’t.
Everyday I’d walk into the hospital with even the smallest bit of hope…but be crushed when I left, thinking the world was coming to and end. It might as well be the end of the world. It sure feels like it to me.
She won’t wake up. I could shake her for endless hours and she wouldn’t open her eyes. She just laid there, almost lifeless, pretty much half way there. Although the more I be a negative Nelly, the more of a chance I have to becoming permanently broken. But there wasn’t much else I could do. I was completely worthless in this situation.
My once sarcastic and fun self had disappeared completely. I’m not myself anymore. I don’t even know who I am. I’m lost…and I’m seriously getting ready to trash this hospital.
I’m angry she won’t wake up. I’m upset that it’s even like this. I want to scream and yell and kick something. I’m pretty sure that by this time tomorrow, I’m gonna punch a wall. Not even kidding you, one of my younger brothers bought me a pillow to scream into yesterday. I just cannot take it anymore and I’m sure the world knows. I’m furious that I can’t do anything about it all. Whats my problem? Seriously. Why am I of no help? For heavens sake, she’s my girlfriend and I can’t do anything to help her!?
I’m the worst boyfriend on the face of the earth. I can’t save her…all I can do is sit here, squeezing her hand.
All I can do is pray to god that she stays here with me.
I can see it now:
NEWSFLASH: JOE JONAS SITS STUPIDELY IN THE HOSPITAL, HELPLESS TO SAVE HIS OWN GIRLFRIEND’S LIFE
Yup, I’ve got it all don’t I?
I’m an idiot.
It should be me in her place. She shouldn’t be the one losing everything. I shouldn’t be sitting here helplessly watching my true love literally die.
[Alright so there’s the first chapter for All Over Again! Please let me know what you think! Next chapter won’t be up until Thursday. It’s possible to have an update before then, but not very likey…we’ll see. <3 Merissa]
