Another One-shot by me!! Song credit to The Veronicas "This Love". Awesome song and video, go check it out!!
I, I,
I Can See It In Your Eyes
Taste It In Our First Kiss
Stranger In The Lonely Town
Save Me From My Emptiness
“I love you baby” was what Nick always told me. Always. Ever since we’d started dating, 2 years ago. We were 20. I’d been going on tour with him and his brothers. It was a hard life. Always on the road, not being able to see my friends and family. I missed them all.
The other day, Nick had told me something I wish that he hadn’t. It made me make my decision. I wasn’t about to let him go through with this. He couldn’t. I had to go. I was too big of a distraction. I knew that it was the right thing to do.
You Took My Hand
You Told Me It Would Be Ok
I Trusted You To Hold My Heart
Now Fate Is Pulling Me Away From You
I wasn’t going to tell him. At least not right now. We’d be in New York City tomorrow night, and I’d leave then. I had to do it. I just had to.
Rain pounded on the windows of the tour bus. I thought about everything we’d said to eachother…
“You’re so beautiful Jessica” Nick said. “I’m not that gorgeous” I blushed. “To me you are” he said. Nick pulled me into one of our kisses that I loved. “I love you” I told him. “I love you too” he said.
That was a typical conversation between the two of us. We’d always been so close. I loved Nick more than anyone else. And I knew he loved me more than anyone else too.
“You ok?” Nick asked sitting down next to me. I nodded. “What’s wrong?” he asked. “Nothing” I sighed. “Jess, I know something’s up. Please talk to me” Nick begged. “Really, it’s nothing” I said tugging on the sleeves of my orange Hollister sweatshirt. “Fine” he said.
“I was thinking about what I said the other night” Nick started. “And I’m still going to do it” he said. “Nick, you can’t. You just can’t” my voice cracked. “I can and I will. I love you Jessica.” He said, kissing my forehead.
Even If I Leave You Now,
And It Breaks My Heart,
Even If I’m Not Around,
I Won’t Give In,
I Can’t Give Up,
On This Love
We arrived at the hotel that night around 10. It was too late to leave now. I’d go early in the morning.
“After you” Nick opened the door to our room for me. I giggled. “Thank you” I said. I still couldn’t believe I was actually going to leave. But I had to.
Nick and I climbed into our bed, and turned off the lights. Nick was exhausted, and I knew he was. I was too, and it was going to be a big day tomorrow. “Nick” I said. “Yeah” he said. “Why are you going to leave the band?” I asked him. It took him a while to answer. “Because I love you more” he finally said. “But, you’ve worked your whole entire life for this” I said. “I know, but you’re more important to me. Now let’s go to sleep” he said. I felt his lips touch mine. “Goodnight” he yawned. “Night” said.
You’ve Become A Piece Of Me
Makes Me Sick To Even Think
Of Morning Waking Up Alone
Searching For You In My Sheets,
Don’t Fade Away
I didn’t sleep all night. I tossed and turned, surprised that I hadn’t woken up my boyfriend. I’d gotten up at 6 to take a shower, and then started to pack up myself. Nick wasn’t about to leave the band for me, and I wasn’t going to sit around to let him. This was the way it had to be.
I picked up my stuff from around the room, trying to get everything into only one suitcase.
Tears streamed down my face as I packed. Why was I crying? I needed to leave. I did. It was my choice. Yeah, I loved him. And he loved me. And it was true love probably. And he was going to leave the band for me. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t go through with this. It wasn’t going to happen this way. If Nick really wanted to make me happy, he’d stay in the band. He’d keep living out his dream. I’d stay with him then. Maybe. I’d just leave for a while to see my family, and then come back. But I’d tell him if that was the case. And it wasn’t. Nick was going to just get up and run away with me. He had this dream of us just living happily ever after. Me being Cinderella, and him Prince Charming, living a fairy tale. That wasn’t going to happen though, and he had to accept that. What would his family say? How would he have told them? It just wasn’t going to work that way.
I was doing the right thing, for both of us, even if my heart told me other wise.
Even If I Leave You Now,
And It Breaks My Heart,
Even If I’m Not Around,
I Won’t Give In,
I Won’t Give Up,
On This Love
Maybe I’d come back for him. Maybe he’d come after me. Maybe something would happen that’d bring us together again. But until then, I was history. I left Nick a note explaining why I was leaving, and how I did love him and always would. He didn’t wake up the entire time I was packing, or when I closed the door to the hotel room. He may not understand why I was gone at first, but he would.
I walked through the lobby of the hotel and out the door. I was checking in at a hotel a few blocks away until I found a place of my own. I knew that tears were still on my face. I let them sit there, knowing more were forming.
I saw Nick everywhere. Anyone who reminded me of him his face seemed to belong to. There were girls walking with Jonas Brothers t-shirts, and posters of their upcoming tour everywhere. They were in store windows, on posters and clothes. Nick meant everything to me, true, but because he meant so much to me, I was willing to give him up for his own good, and even mine.
I Can’t Just Close The Door
On This Love
I Never Felt Anything Like This Before
Like This Love
Tell Me The Truth No Matter What We’re Going Through
Will You Hold On Too ‘Cause
It was 10 o’clock now, and Nick had probably found me gone by now, read my note, and was probably sitting on the side of the bed, wondering why. I hated to leave him. I hoped he wouldn’t be mad at me for going. If he had cried for me, it’d make it even harder, since I’d been crying too. I loved him so much. I didn’t feel the same without him. Part of me was gone.
I could feel him. I could feel his heart aching. I could feel his love. He was so amazing. Everything about him was.
I was sitting at a little café down the street from my hotel. I sat their drinking coffee, millions of thoughts running through my head. I fiddled with my dirty-blonde hair, running my fingers through it like I always did when I had a lot on my mind.
Besides me, the only other people in the café were the workers. People walked by, holding hands and having fun. Everyone looked so happy that walked by.
“Whatcha drinking?” I familiar voice asked from behind me. I didn’t turn around. “Coffee” I said. I couldn’t take it. I jumped up out of my seat and wrapped my arms around Nick, and started to cry hard. “It’s ok Jessica. I’m not mad at you” he told me, trying to comfort me. “No it’s not. I love you so much Nick” I cried, looking him in the eyes. “I love you too” he told me. Now I’d seen that he had been crying. His eyes were puffy and red. “It’s my fault” he said. “No it’s not. I, I, I shouldn’t have left. I should’ve just talked to you” I said. “No, no, no. I shouldn’t have just come out and told you I was leaving the band and I wanted you to run with me. That was a lot to put on your shoulders. You tried to talk to me, and I wouldn’t listen. I don’t blame you for any of this” he told me, and kissed me lightly. “And I think it made me realize how much I loved you. And how much you loved me. You didn’t want me to give up my dream just for you. That shows how much you love me Jess. It really does” Nick told me. “I sure hope it does” My voice cracked.
Even If I Leave You Now,
And It Breaks My Heart,
Even If I’m Not Around
I Won’t Give In,
I Won’t Give Up,
On This Love
We walked back to my hotel to check me out and grab my stuff. I was going to come back with Nick under on condition, he didn’t leave the band. He stuck with it. Nick promised he would no matter what.
“Checking out so soon?” the man at the check-in desk asked. “Yeah, I realized what a huge mistake I’d made” I said. “Well then, glad you fixed it” he said. “And you’re all checked out Miss Smith. Thank you and come again” he said. Nick grabbed my suitcase and we started back to his hotel.
“You came after me” I said as we walked. “Of course I did” he said. I kissed him lightly. “I love you” I said. “I love you too” he said back, showing his smile that made me go weak at the knees.
I was glad that I hadn’t gone too far.
Even If I Leave You Now,
And It Breaks My Heart,
Even If I’m Not Around,
I Won’t Give In,
I Won’t Give Up,
I Won’t Give In,
I Won’t Give Up,
On This Love
