Previously on My Forbidden Love…
“Of course, I won’t. You’re my brother and I won’t do anything to hurt you. I love you, you know. As what you’ve said last night, we’ll be siblings in no time” she said nervously. She did get what I mean.
“Right but don’t you love me more than as a brother?” I asked with hope in my eyes.
“Joseph, quit the games okay? This isn’t funny anymore.” She said turning her back, trying to avoid looking at me.
“Answer me, Hazel. Do you love me?” I asked sternly.
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Will she say "Yes"? Or will he start his day with a broken heart?
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“Answer me, Hazel. Do you love me?” I asked sternly.
“I don’t Joe. Okay?” she tried to walk away from the conversation and from me but I held her and stopped her.
“Face me and tell me you don’t”
“Joe. I don’t love you.” She said but forgot - or tend not - to turn.
“Face me and I will believe you”
She turned around with her head bent down. I lifted her chin up and looked into her eyes deeply.
“Do you love me?” I looked at her with much hope. Hope that I once lost when my mom left my dad just to fulfill her dream being a social worker, but that hope found me when I saw the same soulful eyes across mine when my dad announced that he found his new love and said she’s moving in with her daughter but don’t worry they’ll be in the guest room. Both my family and hers is Christian and we keep that in mind all the time. She didn’t know that she’s the only person who brought me that hope when no one even cared to bring it back to me or yet no one can bring that lost hope back to me. Yes, even my own family, though incomplete, tried to glue all the pieces back but that didn’t help at all. She gave me hope even though she was as sad as me, or even sadder, I can tell and feel. She once told me that their father left them for another younger woman that she and her mom trusted. Her story’s more painful than mine. I was happy to know that she trusted me her painful story. For the past 3 years we became closer and my feelings for her dived deeper. I know almost everything about her and she knows almost everything about me. I told her everything. My secrets, problems…everything, but I decided to drop one detail out. I tried to ignore it but I couldn’t. As much as it pains me, I have to hide my feelings just not to interfere with my father’s own happiness, which will somehow be mine in just few months time, time that I, officially, can call her, my baby step sister. I never saw my dad this happy after my mom left us and I’m not going to ruin it for him. If he’s happy then I’d be happy though it may take some time and sacrifices. That was before. Now, I can’t take all the pressure anymore. I’m gonna tell her no matter what. She may hate me after; I don’t care as long as she’ll somehow know what I feel for her. Though hoping she might feel the same way was what I really want.
“I don’t love you” she looked at me sternly with tears trapped around her dark-brown eyes.
Something told me that she’s lying and that I have to do one thing while I still can. I held both of her arms and pushed her towards me.
Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside
I kissed her. To my surprise, that didn’t give the fast heart beats that I’m feeling but when she kissed me back. She felt the same way.
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
“This is wrong Joe.” she said after she pulled back.
“What’s so wrong about this?” I asked.
“Everything” she broke down crying. I hugged her and let her had my chest to cry on.
“Why? We love each other” I hugged her tight.
“No we don’t. We just thought that we do cause we experienced the same thing with our parents” she moved my hands away.
“Can’t you see their faces, Joe? They’re so happy with each other and so are we, right? - Or just me, atleast. We have to set our feelings aside for the better”
“For the better?! You know it pains not to be with someone you love, Hazel”
“How selfish can you be, Joe?! We’re talking about our parents’ happiness.”
“I thought you were the smart one" I turned my back on her, sighed and turned back again and held her arms. "How about ours?”
“I’m already happy when I see them happy. This is the time that we’ve been asking for Joe; time wherein we can have a complete family. This is the time I’ve been asking for my whole life after my dad left us and I know you too. I’m sorry but we can’t be together” she ran off and I didn’t run after her. I wasn’t being a coward or whatever. If you’re in my shoes you’ll know the feeling when you want to chase someone but you know you just cant or when your feet won’t move. It’s as if it’s glued on where you’re standing.
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Days passed by so quickly. I barely talked to her since then. When we would meet along the hallway she’d try or pretend I’m not there. I would always bring out an effort to talk to her but she’d refuse but I never gave up. I kept on thinking if what I did was to make everything clear for me and maybe for her; or - like what happened now - would bring damage to our closeness and friendship. But I don’t think - or refused not to think that it brought damage to our relationship as friends. I know something better was waiting ahead.
Later that evening, she decided to stay at her grandma’s place for a month before the wedding. I don’t know if what ‘happened’ made her decide to move out for a while. I didn’t mind to ask her why nor my dad nor her mom, though I think I have the answer to my question. I’m just not sure.
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
“Hey” I greeted and sat beside her on the swing. ‘Please don’t leave’ I thought and kept it to myself.
“Hey” she greeted back but her eyes were focused on the starry midnight blue skies.
“Does your decision have something to do with what happened?”
She sighed and turned to look at me, “Honestly, yes it does”
“Do whatever you want. I won’t get mad. My promise, remember?” I asked her.
She let out a giggle. “Yeah” she said.
“Well, a promise is a promise” I chuckled.
“I’m sorry” she said with her eyes so sorrowful, breaking my laughter.
“For what? You didn’t do anything.”
“Sorry for hurting one thing that you won’t let me break” she looked away.
“Don’t worry. You just hurt me - not like you could break it into pieces. So far, it’s still intact” I chuckled again, but I let out a fake one.
“Can I ask you one question- before I leave?” she turned to me.
“Yea sure. It's the least I can do, I think”
“Why did you have to kiss me?” she asked. I saw tears forming in her eyes but she tried to keep it from falling.
“Cau-”.
“Kids it’s getting dark. Go inside now especially you Hazel. I’m driving you to the airport first thing in the morning. ”
“Okay, I’m coming, mom. Goodnight, Joseph”
“Night”
“Now, Joseph. Even if it isn’t necessary for you to wake up that early, still that doesn’t excuse you of going to bed early.”
“Be there. Umm by the way do you know where Dad keeps his office supplies?”
“I really don’t know honey. Just go check inside your father’s desk”
I went inside to get what I’ll need and spent a quiet time then went to bed after.
I know that you'll be back boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oh
I know that, you’ll be right back, babe
Oh baby believe me it's only a matter of time
Of time
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Will he stop her from going? But will she let him stop her? Will it be a happy ending or not? Tune in for that :D
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Here are some lines for the next chapter... but I won't tell you who's line is who. (ATTENTION: The lines are taken from different scenes and are in no particular order)
“I love you.”
“Bro, you’re grinning like mad”
“Yes :)”
“Why so the ‘much’, Joseph?”
“Ahh…it hurts but much better”
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A/N: So chapter two’s up. Thank you so much for reading Chapter 1 and 2, this Chapter. Hope you’ll be tuning in for the final chapter, Chapter 3. Are you intrigued as to who said the following lines? Lol. Nick, Kevin and Frankie will appear in Chapter 3 soon but they aren’t given huge roles in this story. Just to show you that they’ll have an appearance for Chapter 3, the clues are shown in the “lines for the next chapter” that were given above.
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