it has now been 2 months since i last saw nick, and i have fallen into a rut, i mean i go to work, go to practice then go home and do nothing but listen to music and lay in bed, i don't talk to anyone anymore really, all i do is write songs most of which are depressing, i don't know what's up with me i mean no guy has ever made me do this before normally after a break up i try to forget, but i jsut can't i realize i don't wanna start new i wanna be with nick again, but that just can't happen
i blacked his number from my phone he was always calling me trying to talk and stuff but i didn't want to, i mean come on he broke my heart into a billion little peices does he really expect me to just forgive him just because he called, i don't think so
i walk into des' door where we are having our practice while her parents are still at work so they don't get mad at us for being too loud thats the only thing non of our parents like, they love that we are in a band just not the fact that when we practice it does get kinda messy to put it nicely
"hey" i said as i took off my jacket throwing it over the couch as i walked into the living room where des and lauren where sitting
"hey sarah, was up?" lauren said smiling at me
"nothing, where's ash?" i asked looking around the room seeing nothing that would say she was ever there
"out back talking to joe" des said as she held up her glass and took a drink of the lemon aid
"of course" i said walking into the kitchen grabbing a glass and pouring me some lemon aid as well
"hey" ash said as she walked threw the sliding glass door
"hey how's joe?" i asked taking a sip as she started pouring herself a glass
"great, and he misses me" she said smiling
"well of course" i said looking down remembering when her and joe weren't even a couple and me and nick where and how she would always as me questions about him
"come on let's go rock out and get some of these emotions out" she said linking arms with me as we walked into the living room through the connecting door
after practice i went home walking not really in the mood to drive, the girls stayed to talk about stuff they said i could stay but i really didn't, i mean i love my friends to death and would do anything for them but right now i just needed to go home and lay down by myself trying to figure out what to do
