I hope you like this girls.
It's not one of my best,
But its decent I guess..
so yeah.. here you go. <3
Permanent
[oneshot]
This love was supposed to be everlasting. It wasn't supposed to end as quickly as I thought it should. He wasn't supposed to get hurt. I wasn't supposed to hurt him like I did. But, I wasn't thinking, and as a result, he got hurt. I didn't think that I would fall in love. But I did. I didn't think I would be able to ever hurt him. But I did. And now, I'm left with a broken heart. I'm left torn in two. I'm left alone.
I could still remember it all like it was yesterday. The concert. The accident text message. My heart falling for the first time in a long time. The dates. And then came the hurting. The pain, the sorrow, the confusion. I never knew someone like him was able to do this. I never knew someone like him, wanted to do this. I gave him all my heart, my trust, and now I'm left torn in two. Torn away from all my friends and family, but most of all, torn away from the world. Torn away from him. Torn away from myself. Why do I feel this way? Was I really in love?
I could still remember that single red rose he gave me when he met me. His hypnotic smile. Those mesmerizing, glossy caramel eyes of his. His breath taking voice. His breath capturing my lips. I could still remember how our hands fit so perfectly. How it felt like we both found that last piece to the puzzle. I could still remember the songs he sang. I still have all the phonecalls he made. I still have all the text messages he sent. I still have his heart.
It's strange how strongly I feel for him. How right this moment feels to me. How wrong this moment feels. I could still remember the laughs we shared. The tears he wiped away from my eyes. His breath capturing my lips. God, how I missed him.
I screwed up now pretty bad. I made the mistake in my life, and its too late to take it back. It's too late to go back to where it all started. When it all started. It's dark, and I'm scared and alone. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel. The worst part is..
It's permanent..
dedicated to my Joe Jonas look alike bf. </3
I loved you so.
But its time for me to let go.
I don't hate you. But right now, I'm just confused. *>.<
