Chap. 1
*three months earlier, Joe’s POV*
I don't remember when I noticed it. It just sort of happened. When I started to get these feelings I just wanted to burry them deep in my brain so nobody could ever find them. Then I started to realize they weren’t going away. I just had to learn to deal with what I was becoming. I guess I didn’t deal with it too well considering nobody knows...
I jumped a little when I heard my phone start to ring. I pulled it out of my backpack and walked to the back of the bus, away from my brothers. I glanced at the screen of my phone. The name Noah flashed up at me. I guess saying nobody knows, isn’t exactly true, he knows.
“Talk to me.” I said flopping down on my bunk. I heard him laugh on the other end of the line.
“Hey JayJay. How’s life with those still pretending to be straight?” I sighed. There you have my problem. I’m gay, but my popstar life prevents me from being myself. Noah, my first and only boyfriend, is the only one in the world who knows, besides Nick, and the only reason he knows is because he walked in on Noah and me kissing. Back when we where still going out. We broke up about a month ago, but we’re still good friends. I mean let’s face it, who else have I got to talk to?
“Not to bad I guess. Nothing dramatic since the last time we talked, which was yesterday. I had corn puffs for breakfast, does that count?” I said rolling over, onto my back and starring at the underside of Nick’s bunk.
“Seen any hot guys?” Noah asked, making me laugh. That was one of the first things I noticed about him, he never beat around the bush.
“I’ve been on a bus with my brothers all day, No. Where do you expect me to find hot guys?”
I heard Noah laugh again. “Well, you know, that Kevin, he’s one fine hunk of manhood.”
I snorted. “Okay, first of all, Eww, he’s my brother. And second, he’s not my type anyway. But I’ll tell him you said so.”
I could almost see Noah smiling at the other end of the phone. “You do that.”
I chuckled again, then sighed. “How’s Travis?”
“Good, we’re going out tonight.” Noah said, the smugness coming through on his voice. He loved to rub it in my face that he had a boyfriend and I didn’t. That was the strange thing about us. We had dated, but there was no awkwardness left over. We were really just best friends.
“Ugh, I have a concert tonight.” Concerts were good for my brothers, tons of screaming girls. But you didn’t often see scream guys at Jonas Brothers concerts, or if you did, they’re being dragged away by security.
“I’m sorry, JayJay. But I got to go. You never know, maybe tonight will be different. I’ll call after the concert, ok?”
I sighed. “Ya, bye No. Have fun.” I hung up the phone, tears brimming in my eyes. I wiped them away angrily. This wasn’t right, I should be having fun. Noah was right, I decided, tonight was going to be different. I could almost feel it.
