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Chapter 3

“Nick!” I said, literally jumping into his muscular arms.

“Woah are you trying to kill me?” he asked chuckling. He wrapped me into a tight hug and lifted me up, spinning me around in a circle.

“No, but I’ve just missed you so much! It’s been months since I saw you last, and you just surprised me is all.” I said as I jumped out of his arms and went to greet Kevin and Joe, but I noticed they were already inside talking to Liss and Jess.

“Well, I wanted it to be a surprise and you have no idea how much I’ve missed you as well!” he said, looking deep into my eyes. I looked back into his dark chocolate brown eyes, our faces grew closer. I leaned into his face and our lips were inches apart and I could feel his breath. “Come on, let’s go inside.” He said, grabbing my hand and leading me inside. His hands were warm but mine were freezing. His warmth sent a tingle down my spine and gave me butterflies in my stomach. I could not have butterflies because of Nick, he was my best friend. I can’t have feelings for him, it would ruin everything. I couldn’t be falling for him.

“Joe! Kevin!” I said, after entering the living room again. I was engulfed by two huge hugs from both of the boys.

“Amy! We have missed you! And so has Frank the Tank, he will be so excited when he hears you are coming…” Joe was cut off midsentence by Nick who was behind me, making gestures with his hands and mouthing ‘no’ behind my back. “…to dinner with us.” Joe finished his sentence.

“All of a sudden I heard Nick’s cell phone ring, he answered it and he was smiling. “Hey babe,…no I’m at Amy’s house…no she’s my best friend, you know I only like you….I love you too, I’ll call you later.” He said into his phone. He hung up and looked up and we were all staring at him.

“Sorry about that guys, it was Emma, my girlfriend. She was checking up on me like she is my mom or something.” He said to us all.

Girlfriend, of course he has a girlfriend. He is pretty much the cutest guy on the planet. But wait, I can’t think that, he’s my best friend. I can’t possibly think my best friend is hot, or could I? and why was my heart so crushed when I heard he had a girlfriend. Maybe I was really falling for him, falling in love with my best friend, with a rock star.

“She seriously needs to stop being so clingy with you dude!” Joe said to Nick.

“She just wanted to make sure I was alright, that’s all.” Nick argued back.

“And it doesn’t seem a little creepy that she calls you every minute of the day bro?” Kevin added in.

“Okay well maybe a little, okay yes.” Nick said agreeing with his brothers.

By this time Jessica, Alissa, and I were all staring at Nick with shock on our faces. So many thoughts were running through my head, the first one was why was my heart so crushed? I knew Nick didn’t like me like that. But why hadn’t he told me that he had a girlfriend? Back there it seemed like we had almost kissed. All those text messages, what did they even mean? I meant nothing to him, nothing at all. That’s what I kept telling myself over and over. Why did he hurt me?  With so many emotions in my head I knew only one way to relieve the stress.

“Umm, I need to use the umm…I need to go to the bathroom?” I said, almost asking it as a question, trying to make any excuse to leave the room.

“Oh no.” Alissa said as I ran out of the room.

“Crap.” Nick said thinking the exact same thing as Alissa.

“What’s going on?” Kevin asked confused.

“I have to go find her.” Nick said as he hurried out of the room, sprinting up the stairs taking them practically 3 at a time.

“Just let him go and get her.” Joe said, holding Alissa back.

“But I’m her best friend, she needs me.” Alissa spoke.

“But maybe she just needs Nick right now.” Jessica added in and Joe nodded in agreement.

MEANWHILE UPSTAIRS!

“Amy, Amy sweetie please answer me.” Nick said. He was desperately opening all of the bedroom doors until he saw a light on in the bathroom. He knocked on it lightly, “Amy, please can I come in?” he heard no answer. He tried to turn the door knob but realized it was locked. “Crap well its good that I know were the keys are hidden.” He said, reaching along the door frame. He felt a key and grabbed it and slid it into the keyhole and heard a click, opening the door.

I looked up as I heard the door creaking open, and my tear stained eyes met Nick’s. I was sitting on the floor next to the toilet with a bloody knife in my hand. He just stood there pleading with his eyes until I broke the silence.

“The damage is already done Nick. You’re too late this time.”

“That is what I was afraid of.” Nick said as he dropped down onto his knees and took the knife out of my hand. “Why’d you do it this time?” he asked as he moistened a washcloth in the sink.

“I’m a failure.” I said and muttered ouch under my breath as he cleaned the would off.

“What in the world makes you think, for one second that you are a failure?” he said as he finished cleaning the cuts out and rinsing and hanging the washcloth up.

“People make fun of me at school. They all make fun of you and your brothers and it hurts me because you are the only reason I haven’t killed myself.” I finished and Nick brought me a fresh towel and told me to apply pressure.

“That’s a stupid reason for you to do this.” Nick said as he brushed back my bangs that had fallen into my eyes and he whiped off the fresh tears that had begun to fall.

“First off, you are not stupid. And that’s not the only reason. No one wants me, so if no one wants me then why live in agony?” I said and I buried my face in my hands.

“That statement is not true.” He said rubbing my back, causing me to look up.

“Yes it is! No one freaking wants me Nick!” I said angerly.

“No it isn’t Amy! It’s not true!” Nick said, getting frustrated.

“How do you know Nick?” I asked him with more tears falling.

All of a sudden Nick pushed me against the wall and pressed his lips to mine. He pulled my body closer to his as he deepened it but then pulled away.

“How do I know it’s not true? Because I want you.” Nick whispered in my ear and he got up and opened the bathroom door, shutting it gently behind him. Leaving me speechless and even more confused. Does Nick really like me?

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sorry it took so long for me to update but i had finals today and then i fell asleep on the couch when i got home.but here is the new chapter.i have 2 more chapters written and typed up but im not going to post them until i get a few comments on this chapter.next chapter is pretty intense.but anyways.here is the new chapter.enjoy!

Chapter 4

Nicks POV:

I shut the door and I started to walk down the stairs but I stopped myself. Did I really just tell Amy that? The secret I had been keeping to myself for so long. But what about Emma? She was of course, my girlfriend. But did I still really like her? Or was I just keeping her there because I wanted a girlfriend. Either way I have always had Amy and I will always have her, but did she want me as well?  Was I more than just a friend to her? What did I want? Who do I want? Do I want to break Emma or Amy’s heart? Either way someone was going to get hurt. I started walking down the stairs and I saw Kevin with his arm around Jessica, who had fallen fast asleep on his shoulder. I didn’t see Joe or Alissa but I heard the faint sound of Guitar Hero coming from the rec. room. I plopped down on the couch next to Kevin who looked confused.

“Hey bro is Amy okay?” Kevin whispered, trying to not wake Jess up.

“Well I guess you could say that. She might be a little confused but she’s all bandaged up.” I said.

“That’s good to hear! But why would she be confused?” Kevin asked.

“Because I just full on kissed her.” I said in shock.

“Woah wait you did what and with who?” Kevin said so loud that Jess moved a little but stayed asleep.

“Amy, I kissed her. On the lips.” I said, pulling a small smile out.

“I thought you really liked Em though?” Kevin said.

“I guess that I never really liked her like I thought I did. I think I was just trying to cover up my feelings for Amy.” I replied.

“So are you going to break up with her then?” Kevin said, sounding upset.

“I don’t know what I’m going to do. A part of me wants to break it off between us. Another part of me doesn’t want to because I don’t want Emma to get hurt. I can’t do that to her.” I said.

“Yes, but you also can’t do this to Amy either. Just talk to her. She is your best friend.” Kevin said, patting me on the back.

“I’m just going to let things simmer down while I think about my decision.” I said contentfully.

“Good choice just don’t jump to any choices. Remember that Amy has been through it all with you. She’s seen your highest and lowest points. Heck she was there by your side when you got diagnosed with Diabetes.” Kevin said, he felt Jess get up and she awoken because Kevin was speaking so loudly.

“I know and that’s what makes this the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make I’m going to go on a walk, to clear my head.” I said and opened the front door, feeling a rush of cold air hit my face.

Amys POV:

I got up off the bathroom floor and almost fell over. My head felt all dizzy but I knew I was just weak because of blood loss. I opened the door and I heard sounds coming from the rec. room. The voices sounded like Joe and Alissa. I walked into the room and stood at the doorway watching the two attempt to play Guitar Hero.

“It’s show time! I’m ready to kill you Lissa!” Joe said.

“No I’m going to totally pone you Joseph!” Alissa said.

“Let’s see about that then! I’m already winning!” Joe said as he strummed on the guitar and pressed the plastic buttons.

“We aren’t even on a level yet silly. We are only on the menu screen.”  Alissa said, laughing at what Joe said.

“Hey guys I just want to tell you that I’m going on a walk.” I said interrupting.

“Okay is everything alright?” Alissa asked me.

“I am not really sure.” I said walking out of the room and down the stairs and out the front door passing Kevin and Jessica who were making out.

Nick’s POV:

I was sitting on the porch swing debating my choice. I pulled out my iPhone and read al of the messages in the inbox from Amy. I knew what I had to do. I dialed Emma’s phone number and put the phone up to my ear.

“Emma, look we need to talk.” I said into the phone.

“Okay then talk.” Emma responded.

“I don’t know how to do this, there is no easy way to say this but…” I said but was cut off by Emma.

“You want to breakup with me because you have always loved Amy. Am I right?” Emma said.

“Yeah, how did you know?” I asked her.

“Just a feeling. But I am not hurt by your decision. We can stay friends. I hope.” Emma said.

“Yeah of course we can.” I said happily.

“Well you’d better go and get her.” Emma said.

“Yeah thanks Em!” I said as I hung up.

I heard the front door open and Amy walked out.

“Amy we are going to have to talk about this sooner or later.” I said taking her hand in mine.

“Yeah I know. I just don’t want to lose you. I can’t lose you Nick.” Amy said looking down.

I lifted her head up, “You are far from that.” I whispered into her ear.