I Love You
Her stunning green eyes shift from side to side worry etched across her face. It was clear she was nervous and that she didn’t want to be there but it wasn’t really for her. It was for him, to help him feel a little bit better about her wanting to run. It wasn’t her fault that she was scared of marriage that was her parent’s fault. They had ruined the hope of their little girl, twisting what love really was so that all she knew was wrong. And scaring her to a point of not wanting to ever find someone who she wants to spend the rest of her life with.
The tan boy with chocolate brown eyes sitting next to her rubs his tub over the skin of her hand a small smile on his face as he glances shyly at her. She smiles back softly watching the couple in the front of the room say their vows. It’s funny if you think about it the first to marry was the second youngest of the boys, Nicholas and his wife was her boyfriend’s age and had her name, Ashley. The two girls were a lot alike too both with brown hair and green eyes that hangs in loose curls or straight sometimes. But at the same time there were those differences, Ashley was tall and she was short, Ashley had glasses and no bangs and she had perfect eyesight and perfect bangs.
She fidgeted in her dress and frowned to look at him once again. He squeezed her hand a small sign of reassurance but she didn’t really take to it. She slowly scooted over on the pew, she was on the edge and when he wasn’t paying attention she ran for her life out of the church. She started to breath normally as she grabbed her vibrating enV from her purse and looks at the text from her boyfriend.
Green Eyes are you okay?
She shakes her head, he obviously knows the answer to that one but still she answers the best she can.
Marriage worries me. Sorry I tried so hard.
She strips her heels off and walks over to her car. She quickly slips a pair of shorts on under her dress, a tank top over it and then manages to pull it off. She sits on the hood of her car waiting for the wedding to be over and just playing with her cell phone. It starts to vibrate again and she spots her boyfriends words with a few tears in her eyes.
I know I love you Green Eyes. We’re almost done.
He loved her, her idea of love was so twisted and demented but he loved her. She didn’t understand how he could say it with such ease. She wouldn’t be able to tell him such a thing with so little care. They had been dating for almost two years and it still took her a great amount of stuttering to even get love out of her mouth. She didn’t know how to love, and yet she was sure she did.
Okay I’m waiting. <3
She knew he wasn’t expecting a I love you too. She had never said it just nodded smiling and mummering you too. He had never expected her to say it, he knew how badly she was damaged by the examples her family had set. They were twenty when they had met, had known each other for three years before they dated and now at twenty five she knew he was ready, ready to do exactly what his little brother was doing to get married and have kids.
Her green eyes look down at her hand where the diamond band sits on her finger, not an engagement ring a promise ring, that’s what he said when he gave it to her. She wishes she had enough faith in the love that he had for her and the love she wished she had for him, but she doesn’t she only know that she wishes she did. A diamond glitters in the sun as she turns her finger. She hadn’t removed the ring since he gave it to her almost a year before and she wasn’t sure if she ever would but she knew that it probably wouldn’t be the only ring she wore.
A familiar tan hand rests on her knee and she looks up into his brown eyes with her own green ones. He smiles softly at her and strokes her knee softly as his parents walk up, along with his older and younger brother and the olders girlfriend.
“It’s such a shame you couldn’t see the ending it was beautiful,” his mother cries.
“I wish I could have but I freaked out. I’m sorry. I just I can’t do weddings. My parents,” She shakes her head.
“We know Ash,” her best friend and his older brothers girlfriend says softly.
“Hopefully you’ll make it to the end of your wedding,” the youngest boy, who was fourteen at the time, says.
“My wedding…” Ashley mumbles looking at the tall boy standing next to her car.
“We all have dreams Ashley. Come on… We’re gonna go have fun,” he smiles at her.
“But what about the reception,” Ashley frowns?
“Nick and Ashley said it was fine if we didn’t show up. They know how hard it was for you to last through the first set of vows. Come on,” he says.
She hops off the hood of her car and stretches to reach her arms around his neck, showing off her silver belly button piercing. He hugs her back and steals her keys from her purse hoping in the drivers seat as she gets in the passangers. They speed off and he makes her close her eyes so that she doesn’t ruin the surprise. When he pulls to a stop he gets out and hurries over to her side of the car, putting his hand over her eyes as he leads her somewhere. When her eyes open she spots the sun setting in the background, a beautiful picnick lying out on a patch of grass. She turns to him and spots the love in his eyes, the love he speaks of every second of every day when he’s there with her. She gets as close to him as physically possible, standing on her tiptoes and wrapping her arms around his neck pecking all over his face.
“What’s this for,” he chuckles wrapping his arms around her waist.
“Cause Joe I love you,” she answers a gleam in her eyes.
Joe looks shocked down at the girl in his arms and kisses her sweetly a few times smiling over her words.
“I do I love you,” she whispers in between kisses.
“Well then promise me something,” Joe mummers.
“Anything,” she replies.
“Promise to love me 'til the day we both die. And keep that promise the easiest way you can. Will you marry me,” Joe asks as he gets on one knee producing a stunning ring, an emerald surrounded by a cluster of diamonds?
“Of course. Cause I love you. And I want to forever,” she replies as he slips the ring on her finger.
They look into each others eyes and say three words together with ease and feeling.
“I Love You.”
