I'M LOST WITHOUT YOU (oneshot songfic)
I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
I held him in my grasp, and now he's gone.
What in the good lord's name have I done? What have I gotten myself into? I want no one but him. I need him. I feel him. He's everywhere.
But once you've hit reality, once I've hit reality, I realize he's not.
A tour? What about me? Won't I bring him happiness?
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
What if he finds another girl? Will this slap the "The End" on our relationship? Will he even remember me? It will be two years, two years without his splendid presence. Two years that I feel I need to keep to myself, and keep everyone out. He's the only one that knows my darkest secrets, my fantasies, he's the one who holds the key to my heart.
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this
I will, as his girlfriend, sit here, in my room, on my bed, for him. Waiting for him. These two years. In all honesty, I don't know what these 2 years will gift him, but I will wait for him, and nobody else. The one thing I fear most. Loneliness, and it's already crept up to me, and trying to make friends. It won't happen. I hope it doesn't anyways. But for all I know, this may not have been the best decision.
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
What's going to happen? I wonder. Will he look different when he gets back? He'll be two years older. Two years wiser. Two years smarter. Two years that I won't get to cherish of this beautiful man. The one they call Kevin. This tour, will be two years too long. Two years of locking in the feelings, two years of pain. Two years of crying that is wasted. Two years, and I hope I'm still here. Two years, and I hope he's here. I don't want him there. In my eyes, he shouldn't be there.
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
This for one, is not a fairytale. It's not a dream. Our love is real, and I want him here. I know, he wants me there. But I can't. See I have studies. To pursue something rather than the thing he calls, "The Music Industry". Our trust has grown, and maybe I am the only one for him. But things change, and the world is deceiving. Everything's deceiving. He's everything to me, but let's hope he's not the everything that deceives.
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
