soo here is another oneshot from me...haha i hope its okay i was a little sleepy when i wrote it...but i think its okay haha please criticize!!!
The cool breeze hit my face as I stood on the balcony that night looking up at the stars, everything was calm…it seemed like nothing could go wrong…I love nights like this.
“What are you doing out here?” I wasn’t alone anymore
“Just thinking” I said without turning around to face him
“Thinking about anything in particular?” he asked walking up behind me
“No, not really” I replied continuing to look out at the tree covered horizon
I was hoping that if maybe I froze him out for long enough he would leave, because truly I just wanted to be alone…and if I were to be joined…he was the last person I wanted up here with me…
“Hey…”
“Kevin…please”
“Why won’t you talk to me?”
I didn’t answer…I didn’t want to answer because the truth hurt too much and I couldn’t lie to him because he would know…so I just didn’t answer…a tear fell down my cheek just thinking about everything that had gone wrong over the past week…I wiped it before he noticed but I was to late..he had noticed.
“hey, what is with the tears kid?”
“why do you call me kid? I’m not that much younger than you!”
“I’m sorry I didn’t realize that it bothered you…is that why you’re crying?”
“yes Kevin I’m crying because you called me kid” I said sarcastically
“then why?” he said turning me to face him “you always tell me everything and now you won’t say a word to me” he tried to look me in the eyes but I looked away
“it’s nothing…just go back and have fun with everyone else” I said trying to escape his grasp but he wouldn’t have it
“no…and stop squirming you’re making this more difficult than it has to be”
“its only difficult because you won’t drop it” I snapped and looked him right in the eyes
“no! it’s difficult because you won’t tell me what’s going on” he tightened his grip on me as he said this knowing that I would try to run at the first possible chance.
It was annoying…I was in love with my best friend and he knew everything about me all of my habits, it’s like he could read my mind…I hated hiding my feelings for him…and now he was leaving again just when I thought he was back at least for a month but no just a week…and this whole week all he could talk about was some girl that he was in love with and how amazing she was…now I was getting really worked up…I could feel the tears rushing down my cheeks
“Kevin let me go!” I said sobbing
“Spence” he started and pulled me close to him and I just let my body give up because truly it wasn’t worth it any more.
He stood there holding me for what seemed like forever and I just let him because I wasn’t ready for him to let go.
“Spence I can’t stand to see you crying…it breaks my heart” he whispered into my hair
“I’m sorry” I said and pushed myself away from him wiping my tears
“No” he said pulling me back in… “Spence what’s going on?”
I couldn’t hide it from him anymore, I pushed myself away from him wiped my eyes and decided that it was time that he knew…I told him everything…when I was done I couldn’t tell what he was thinking…he had a blank expression on his face…After a couple minutes he still hadn’t said anything so defeated I turned back to looking out at the horizon…that same wind started to blow past me…I heard something in the background…I turned around Kevin had asked me something…
“What?” I asked
“how long?”
“about 3 years now…”
“3 years…” he said and the look came back for a second then he walked over to me “how could I not have known?”
“I’m an expert at keeping things secret that I don’t want known”
“…I wish you would have told me…”
“why?”
“because…then I could have done this sooner” he said and grabbed me around my waist and kissed me…he let me go…I must have looked as confused as I felt because he asked “is something wrong?”
“…but…you?...how long?”
“about four years now…”
“four?”
“yes four” he said “Spence…I think I love you”
“I think I love you too”
He pulled me back into his arms and held me there and a soft breeze blew over us and somehow I knew that we were meant to be together…just like I had always hoped…
