Hey, so this is my first oneshot so I kinda think I did okay, but let me know what you think. And this is for the lovely Melissa for being her amazing self! =)

Here Without You

    "Melissa," said his sorrowful voice, "Baby, please don't cry." Tonight was the last night I could spend with Kevin before he and his brothers went on tour in Europe.  Just the thought of him not being here to hold me, to comfort me, or to give me those sweet kisses that sent shivers down my spine each time, made my stomach churn uneasily. Kevin and I have been together for about a year now, and we were both deeply in love.  Whenever he had to leave without me, we always spent the night before together. Usually, it was the normal dinner and a movie, but tonight we didn't want to leave each other's side for even a second.

    "Kevin, I'm sorry. I just can't help it. I can't stop thinking of you leaving tomorrow morning. I'm going to miss you so much," I said clutching his shirt trying to hold back more tears. We both laid on my bed, just enjoying each other's company.  I buried my face in his chest, taking in the warm scent of his cologne.

    He removed his hand from my side and lifted my chin. "Babe, I'm going to miss you too. But don't think about tomorrow, think about tonight, think about where we're at right now. I promise I'll call you everyday, text you every hour, and think of you every second. Baby, I love you so much, don't ever forget that," he said stroking my hair.

    "I love you too." He gently placed a soft, yet passionate kiss on my lips. The feel of his lips on mine has always made me feel better, except for nights like these when all I want is for us to stay like this forever, for him to never let me go. Living without him makes me wonder how I lived without him in the past. No one has every treated me so right, he loved to wait on me hand and foot. He even called me his Princess. I have never felt this feeling around anyone before in my life, and I don't plan on it ever going away.

    "Melissa, I promise you, I'll be back. I will never leave you, and if you ever need me for anything, I'll be by your side in a second, you know that right?" Kevin said looking me dead in the eyes. Pain quickly washed over his face as he swept my hair out of my eyes and finally saw me breakdown. I fell to my knees on his front lawn, not caring how muddy it was outside. Kevin quickly knelt to my side, and tried comforting me while rubbing my back.

    But none of his soothing words were making me feel better, he was leaving whether I liked it or not, and there was nothing I could do about it. He stood back up once I calmed down enough to stand back up, and helped me up.

    "Kevin, I'm sorry," I whispered. Confusion soon swept over his face, as well as fear.

    "What do you mean you're sorry?" I looked down at my feet, then closed my eyes, not even believing what I was about to say.

    "Kev, I can't do this. I can't handle this pain I feel every time you leave, and knowing that this isn't going to stop anytime soon just makes the pain even worse," I explained. The look on his face crushed my heart into a million little peices. "Look, I'm sorry, we can't do this anymore." Tears quickly built up in his warm brown eyes, but he refused to let any escape.

    "But we can make this work, I mean-"

    "Baby, I'm sorry," I interrupted. I slowly made my way to my car, gave one last glance at the stunned figure still standing there, and got in. I slowly drove off, down the street, and made my way to a lonely stoplight. I threw my forehead against the steering wheel, avoiding the sudden pain, and cried. I cried for about five minutes, until I heard a loud honk from behind. I picked my head up and looked in the review mirror to see an impatient businesswomen sending me a harsh glare. No matter how much I wanted to just go out there and give her a piece of my mind, I ignored it and made my way home.

    Kevin looked out the window, and saw nothing but a never ending road. He was constantly beating himself up mentally for not doing anything to stop Melissa from leaving. The hurt look on her face kept replaying in his mind. If only I knew sooner, I would have called more, I would have spent more time with her, he thought. He loved her more than anything in the world, and nothing would ever change that. It has been about a month now, but it feels like it just happened yesterday, or like it was just a nightmare that he will wake up from hopefully soon.

    "Kevin, lets go!" Joe called. "We have to go to the meet and greet." As much as he loved his fans, this month he has not really wanted to be around anybody, just him and his thoughts. He slowly made his way out of the bus, and put on a smile for their fans. The screams became louder as they made their way to the table to sign the hundreds of posters, shirts, and even shoes waiting for them.

    For each fan, he gave the usual smile, handshakes, and even a few hugs. Thankfully, the line was almost through, and he let out a relieved sigh. A girl and her friend shyly made their way up to the table and laid their posters on the table for them to shine. Joe and Nick engaged in a nice conversation with them, since they were the last two and they were in no rush, except me.

    "Hi Kevin!" exclaimed one of the girls. He gave her the best smile he could. Her excited face slightly turned into a confused, yet serious one.

    "Hey, How are you?" He asked reaching for a hug. She wrapped her arms around him, and he heard a faint whisper in his ear saying, "You miss her, don't you?" Kevin was slightly taken aback and he separated from their hug. Her serious face had yet to disappear. He decided not to question her, and just nodded. She smiled, turned to her friend, and took her arm as she pulled her away from Joe and Nick. Kevin quickly rushed to the bus, ran inside, and crawled in his bunk. He picked up his phone and looked at the many pictures he had of Melissa. He silently let one tear fall, but soon wiped it away when he heard Joe and Nick run in. He ignored their pleas to let them talk to him, and just stayed in his bunk the rest of the night until he finally fell asleep, still thinking about her.

    I stuffed the spoonful of ice cream in my mouth, ignoring the sudden brain freeze. I couldn't forgive myself for hurting Kevin like I did, but deep down, I knew it was for the best. We couldn't keep living like that. I still love him more than anything, and that wouldn't ever change. The phone next to my bed, where I have been spending most of my time, started ringing just as I stuck another mouthful of ice cream in my mouth.

    "Huwo?" I answered.

    "Huwo? Is this how you have been answering your phone lately?" said a cheerful voice.

    "Ashley, I'm really not in the mood to go to the mall and rate how hot guys are," I moaned.

    "How did you-"

    "I know you, Ash. Now I gotta go find another carton of ice cream, so if you would excuse me, this is an emergency," I said hanging up the phone before she could say anything else. Before going back downstairs to get some more ice cream, I checked my phone and found that I had a new message. I checked to see who it was from. Kevin. I let out a sigh, and set the phone back down. He has left me over fifty messages, and none of which I checked. I couldn't take the pain of hearing his wonderful voice anymore.

    Once I felt up to getting out of my room, I decided to take a drive around town and just think. Of course, my mind was filled with nothing but Kevin.

    Lately I have been in a trance, none of my feelings seemed to be fading away. I pulled up to the stoplight and just took a minute to breath. My mind has been racing ever since Kevin left telling me I made the wrong decision, and lately I have started believing it. Right now, I'd do just about anything to get Kevin back. Just to have him by my side again. He said if I ever needed him, he'd be there in a second, but I highly doubt that now. He probably hates me now.

    I was snapped out of my trance by someone honking their horn at me once again. I looked in the mirror and surprisingly saw the same women who honked at me before. I sighed, keeping in my anger once again, and slowly began to take off. The lady behind me, frustrated that I wasn't moving fast enough, sped up her car and thought she could take a sharp turn infront of me, apparently in the wrong lane. By the time my car had built up the speed it needed, my car almost came in contact with hers. I quickly turned just barely dodging her, but was soon blinded by a pair of headlights coming straight at me. In the blink of an eye, I found myself hanging upside down in the car. The last thing I remember was another sound of a crash, sirens, and more horns before my world turned black.

    I woke up, after being apparently unconscious, by a soft steady beep. I groggily opened my eyes, and saw that I was in a small hospital room.

    Suddenly, I felt my hand become slightly wet. The sight before me had me at a loss for words. It was Kevin holding my hand up to his face and crying into it. I opened my mouth to let him know I was okay, but I couldn't bring myself to talk. Instead, I just squeezed his hand, and his eyes shot up, and his face suddenly lit up.

    "Oh Melissa," he said wrapping me up in a hug in a heartbeat. I smiled when I smelt the soothing scent of his cologne again. I loved the feeling of me being wrapped up in his protective arms again. I finally brought myself up to speak.

    "Kevin, I'm sorry. I should have never broken up with you, it was a terrible mistake," I explained. The corners of his lips curved into a slight smile, trying to hold back tears yet again. "Kev, you probably hate me now, but can we still be friends?" I suggested. It killed me to even think about us just being friends, but it was better than not even speaking to each other.

    His smile quickly faded. "Friends?" he whispered.

    "Well.....I understand if you don't want to be friends, I mean, I probably broke your heart," I said frowning. He violently started shaking his head.

    "No, I don't want to be friends," I nodded my head understandingly, biting my lip to keep from crying. Obviously, I didn't keep the tears from falling because Kevin brought his hand up to my face and wiped the tears away. And to my surprise, he slowly leaned in and gave me the most passionate kiss we have ever had. He lovingly massaged his lips against mine while he stroked my face with his thumb. We finally parted once we were out of breath, and he gave me a quick peck on my nose. I giggled slightly, but my face fell when I realized what just happened, I was so confused.

    "Baby, I want to be so much more than friends. Much, much more. Melissa, I love you so much." He gave me another soft sweet kiss. He carefully laid down next to me, being sure not to hurt me anymore than I was. He wrapped his arms around me as I snuggled into his chest, and soon fell back asleep.

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    "Are you ready to go?" came his cheerful voice. I smiled up at him.

    "Yep!" He grabbed my bags while I grabbed my purse, and we headed of toward the bus. It has been two months since we got back together, and now he was going on tour again. Although, this time, we have made a deal with everyone, and I was able to come with. As long as we didn't do anything except a small kiss here and there we will be fine....yeah right. Right before we stepped into the bus, he dropped my bags and swooped me into a kiss. "I love you," I said gleaming.

    "I love you too. So so much." He pressed his lips against my forehead, "Life hasn't been the same here without you."