I couldn't sleep, and as I was listening to my iPod this song came on and I thought it would make a cool oneshot idea. so here it is.
lemme know what you think!
It's from the song "Twisted" by Carrie Underwood.
<3
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Twisted
Baby you're a wrecking ball
Crashing into me
Nothing I can do but fall
Piece by piece
You broke down every part of me
That ever thought I'd never need you, baby
She threw the covers back as she swiveled herself around on her bed, placing her feet on the floor. Picking up her cell phone, she checked it for messages before using its backlit screen as a flashlight. She made her way slowly over to her desk, sitting down on the chair and turning on the light. Pictures sat atop her desk; memories captured and held close to her heart forever. Her eyes scanned each and every one, as memories flooded back to her of each event. She stopped as she found the last one, the most recent, taken just before he left for tour in Europe. She knew that the distance was going to get to her, but she never imagined that it would be like this.
It's twisted, messed up
And the more I think about it
It's crazy, but so what
I may never understand it
I'm caught up and I'm hanging on
I'm gonna love you even if it's wrong
The same battle plagued her every night as she laid in bed. Tossing and turning for hours, thinking of him and wondering if he was thinking of her. It became a routine where she got up and sifted down memory lane in the middle of the night, by herself, before climbing into bed and crying herself to sleep. Weeks had passed since she last heard his voice, and the text messages were few and far between, but she never once gave up hope that he still loved her. She often questioned if this was all worth it, but in the end she always came up with the same answer: she could never let go of something she loved so much.
Everybody's telling me
I'm over my head
If they don't feel you loving me
They all say that I've gone crazy
Maybe, but it's too late now to save me
I'm too tangled
She held the picture in her hand as she talked to him softly, in hopes of numbing the pain in her heart. The problem was that when he left for the tour, he took her heart with him. Her friends thought that she might have consumed her life with him, but they never really understood everything about their relationship and she didn’t expect them to. It was all a part of the job description she had taken on when they started dating: rock star’s girlfriend, her testimony would prove that it wasn’t easy. It was a given that she would have millions of his fans disapproving of her as well as dealing with his hectic schedule, and for 3 years that hadn’t been a problem until now.
It's twisted, messed up
And the more I think about it
It's crazy, but so what
I may never understand it
I'm caught up and I'm hanging on
I'm gonna love you even if it's wrong
Even if it's twisted
She slowly pushed back the chair and made her way over to her closet, opening the doors and quickly falling to her knees. Her fingers begin to trace the outline of a heart that was carved into the wood floor of her closet three years ago by a newly formed couple. Their love was evident from the start; contrary to popular belief, this was indeed love at first sight. They met casually at the release party for their third album. She was a friend of a friend and it was evident that there was something more between the two that night. He finally worked up the nerve to ask her out a week later, and they have been together ever since.
Maybe it's not right
But that's all right
Yeah, it's all right tonight
She thought back to the night that they sat in her room, talking for hours until he walked over to her closet and began to inscribe his love for her in the floor. The initials were permanently etched in the body of the heart, MJD for her and JAJ for him. She remembered everything about that night, how he smiled after he finished his creation, a look of content that could never be erased from her memory. He had not only carved his name into her floor, but into her heart as well. Her fingers slowly traced his initials as tears escaped from her eyes and slid down her cheeks like raindrops being released from nature’s wrath.
It's twisted, messed up
And the more I think about it
It's crazy, but so what
I may never understand it…
She found the strength to stand, slowly making her way over to the desk, glancing one last time at the pictures before turning out the light. She climbed in bed, finding herself staring out the window to the moon shining brightly in the midnight sky. Silently she admired its beauty as she prayed that tomorrow would be the day she finally heard his voice again. Tears filled her eyes again as she longed for his touch to fill the void in her heart he created when he embarked on the tour. She closed her eyes as she watched a scene play out before her, the night he had first truly captured all of her heart. She could hear him clearly as he said, “I love you, Marni.” Her voice quivered as she responded to the darkness surrounding her, “I love you too, Joe.”
It's twisted, messed up
And the more I think about it
It's crazy, but so what
I may never understand it
I'm caught up and I'm hanging on
I'm gonna love you even if it's wrong
Even if it's twisted
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