Hey guys, I feel so bad that i havent been on lately. Ive just been so busy with bandcamp and then i got grounded. Again, I'm so sorry. And to make it up to you all, here's two new chapters. Enjoy!!!
September 15, 2008
I’ve been tired, that’s why I haven’t written.
Everyday is the same. School half the day, and once I get home I have to cook and clean.
I’ve tried to hang out with Joe again but I can barely see him after school. He does walk me home though. He lives four houses down.
Today was the worst day so far though. Joe didn’t go to school, he had a doctors appointment, and the kids at school were worst than ever. I sat in a bathroom stall all by myself for the first time in a few days.
I got home late today. Some boys from school followed me while I was walking. At one point they got out of the car and tried to get me. One of them pushed me against a pole But I ran, ran as fast as my skinny legs could take me. I ended up hiding in an alley until I heard them drive off. I cautiously walked home that afternoon. I felt so scared without Joe by my side.
My dad gave me hell when I got home, and mom was no where to be found. I made dinner, but dad said it tasted lie crap. He hit me for the first time that night. But the music didn’t threaten to play through my speakers. Instead, I left without dad noticing.
I went to the park. The night breeze was refreshing and just sitting under my tree made it so much better. Although, I nearly died of fright when Joe suddenly appeared at my side. I asked him what he was doing at the park this late, but he said he should ask me the same thing so I gave up. The he said we should adopt this tree. So my tree became our tree.
He then said he had to leave and offered to walk me home. I said I was going to stay a while longer, but he didn’t let me. He was scared I would fall asleep. And I eventually did, on his shoulder too, so he carried me home. He woke me up when we were at my doorstep.
He gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me goodnight beautiful. And once I climbed through my window and realized what he said, I forgot about everything bad that happened during the day. Somehow, he had that effect on me.
Goodnight Journal
September 16, 2008
Joseph Adam Jonas is officially the best person in the world.
I went to the party with him, and I dressed especially nice. I dropped the converse and wore some flats, the only other shoes I own. He picked me up at my house, but I didn’t let him go in. I just slammed the door behind me.
Like always, we walked. It was something we enjoyed doing.
The party was complete chaos and immediately Joe picked up that this wasn’t my scene. He told me we’d leave immediately but first he had to say hi to some people. He told me to wait. I was all alone. Once again, I was scared without Joe.
I hid in a bathroom. But the door opened and a guy walked in. Everything happened so fast that I couldn’t speak. Shirt ripped and arms bruised, the door opened again, but this time I was safe. It was Joe.
He punched the guy and led me out of the house. We walked in silence to the park.
Only these things would happen to me. I guess once your broken, the only way to go is down.
Joe placed his jacket over me and as we sat under our tree, he embraced me in his arms. He flowered me with I’m sorry’s and promised to never leave my side again. I knew he’d keep his promise.
I sat quietly in his arms for most of the night until he walked me home. No one was in my house. Dad was out and mom hadn’t been home in days. At least their would be no problems at home.
Besides, having Joe around has made things better lately.
Goodnight Journal
