My name is Kylie I’m 16 years old. I live in California. I keep straight A’s in school. I’m a very pretty girl. My body is way to mature for my age. I have long black curly hair that hangs down my back. I’m a splitting image of my mother. She was a gorgeous mom before she got sick. I always obey my parents. They’re not like any other parent’s they love me but they love drugs more. I don’t judge my parents I love them and I never look down on them for the mistakes they make.

I go through a lot of hard times in my life. My parents barely have money for us to eat. They always spend it on drugs to get them high. I wake up every morning to a cold shower. We don’t have hot water but I have gotten use to the cold water it feels no different on my body.

I wake up early in the morning everyday and go school so I can get there before everyone else and get free breakfast. I don’t want people to have even more reason to talk about me. I always try to distance myself from people.

My clothes are not brand new there old and too big. My shoes are white air forces that are really beat up. My friend Nicole never judged me for what I looked like or what my parents do. Nicole comes from a family that has money and cares about her.

I walked into my classroom. I sat in the back of the room in the corner away from everyone else and listened to Mr. Mitchell talk about love stories. He talked about forbidden love. I started to daydream about my crush Nick Jonas. I was thinking about me at their concert and Nick singing to me. I knew it was all a dream but he’s what gets me to come to school every morning. I had a crush on him for a long time now but I know it will never happen because of who I’m and where I come from.“ Kylie? Kylie Banks? I snapped out of my daydream and focused back on my teacher. “Yes Mr. Mitchell?” “ Are you paying attention?” “Yes!” “ Then can you get out your Shakespeare book and read act 3 and write and summary on it before class is over.” I nodded and opened the book and started to read.

I walked home from school with my friend Nicole. “Kylie you want to send Christmas with me?” “ Sorry I can’t. I can’t leave my mom by herself on Christmas.” “ Okay! Maybe we can hang out another time.” “ Yeah maybe.” Nicole turned and walked in the direction of her house. I lived a mile away from Nicole she has never been to my house. It’s bad enough I have to wear these clothes. I didn’t want her to see my house. I went inside the house.

“ Mom are you home?” There was silence I was home alone again. It’s been 3 days since my parents have been home. I went in the refrigerator and there was enough food that would last me until I went shopping again. I had a job that paid me minimum wage.

I made a ham sandwich and went to sit outside on the porch. I watched the kids play on the playground. The weather was really nice out. It was in the 80’s almost 90’s. It’s unusual weather for the month of December. My next-door neighbor was a little girl name Madison and her mother Melissa. Madison was 6 years old and she always came over to talk to me when I sat on the porch. She loves to play with my hair. Since it’s so long. She pretends that I’m “ Hi! Kylie. What you doing?” “ Nothing. Just sitting out here in the sun.” “ My mom wants to ask you something.” “ Okay!”

I walked over to Madison’s house and found her mother in the kitchen cooking a little dinner for the two of them. Madison’s mom was nothing like mine she didn’t have much money either but she had a job that paid her bills and kept a roof over their heads food on their table and clothes on their backs. She was far from anything like my mom. “ Hey Melissa. You wanted to see me?” “ Yes! Kylie I was wondering if you would watch Madison for the night? I have to work a double shift tonight. I made dinner for both of you.” “ Of Course I will watch her I just need to go home to leave my mom a note and grab some stuff.” “ Thank You so much. You just have to wake her up and make sure she gets on the bus in the morning.” “ Sure"

I went in my house and grabbed a pen and wrote my mom a note in case she came home that night and I wasn’t there.

Mom, I’m next door at Melissa’s watching Madison for here. I wont be home tonight so I will see you when I get home from schooI. I love you! Kylie!

After I put Madison to sleep I cleaned up the kitchen and did my homework. When I got done doing all my homework. I grabbed my diary and started to write some things down.

Thursday, December 20, 2008

Dear Diary,

It’s 4 days until Christmas and tomorrow is my last day of school until my Christmas break. I haven’t seen my mom in over 3 days I don’t know whether she’s dead or alive. I want to go search for her but I don’t know where to start. I hope she comes back sometime soon. I had the most interesting daydream today in school I was thinking about Nick Jonas. He was singing to me in that awesome voice he has. I would do anything to be in this arms for him to love me the way I never been loved before. I just want to feel loved. My parents are all I have and they rather be high all day then care about me. I try my hardest to please them but they never tell me they’re proud of me. I just wish my mom would come home. I wish things were back to normal before they turned to drugs.

Sincerely,

Sucka For Love!