Chapter 6
Nick's Point Of View:
"Nick you don't get it!" Debbie screamed "You won't ever get it!". Her cell phone began to ring. "Hold up!" she told me. She walked away to be alone.
Phone conversation- Debbie & Emalee:
Deb- Hey Em this isn't a good time to talk
Em- What's wrong?
Deb-Well my mom just died because my dad killed her and he ran off and left me. They got into this huge fight.
Em- Oh My Gosh! I'm sorry Deb
Deb-It's ok. I'm just dealing with this annoying guy right now.
Em-Who?
Deb-Nick Jonas, UGH!
Em-What!?! Your so lucky, he is so hott!
Deb-He is so.... UGH! Talk to you later bye.
Em-Bye
She walked back angry. "So what are you here for to give me a lecture your not my mom you know"she said. I walked closer to her "No, I just wanted to make sure your gonna be ok. Since you have No one to live with you could come stay with me and my family. You can sleep in our guest room"I insisted. "I have No choice so i guess i'll have to stay with you guys"she said. It seemed like she hates me for some reason. I didn't know why though. I never felt the pain she had except when Christina went away. We both walked back to my house in silence. You could here her shaking and trembling when she saw her house. It looked like someone called the cops and ambulence when we left. "There's she is" a man pointed out to a cop. They were talking about Debbie.
"Come here Miss" the cop asked Debbie. She glanced over to the cop and then looked at me. "I'm coming back" she whispered to me.
*One hour later*
We walked inside my house. My mom came running towards us. "Are you ok honey?" she asked Debbie. "Yes" Deb said. I looked at my mom "Mom, Can I talk to you in private for a sec?" I asked. She nodded. "Be back, Deb" I murmured. My mom and I walked into the living room. "Mom I told Debbie she could come stay with us because she doesn't have anywhere to go. She could stay in the guestroom" I mentioned "and don't say anything about her parents either". My mom smiled "Ok. That's fine". I made my way towards Debbie and I showed here where she'll be staying for her stay here. We walked inside the guestroom. "Alright this will be your room for now. If you have any questions at all you can come to me or ask anyone else. I'll be upstairs in my room if you need me" I said. Debbie smiled. Her smile was beautiful. It shined like stars on a clear night sky, perfect and white. I reached for the door knob and I walked out. Leaving her alone.
Debbie/Christina's Point Of View:
Everything looked the same since i've last stay here. I remember Nick and I sneaking out the window at night so we could go to the park. He asked me to be his forever. That had to be the best day of life. If it meant being with him forever. I had a crush on him since I first layed my eyes on him(Pre-K). He'd be my very close friend and we ended up falling in love. He was perfect, I mean like a guy for me. He had all the qualities i wanted in a guy. His eyes, his hair, his smile, his lips, I loved everything. Most of all was his heart. I could still tell he was in love with me, but I didn't want him to at all since I've been gone. He deserves someone better, and it was Debbie. But it was hard to let him go.
Debbie's Point Of View(Authors note: It's only Debbie's thoughts this time and not Christina and her's combined):
As I lay there on the comfortable bed, I felt like I was floating on a white cloud. What am I talking about? I need to do it now! Now,now,now! But what's going to happen with Christina? She'll be free, right? Yes, she will. Then what's going to happen with me and Nick. All I want it just to leave this stupid crazy world. Nick just wants Christina back. I knew how he felt about her. He was crazy about her. I'd never even have a chance with him at all even if I did like him, but do I? Nick never talked about Christina to anyone else including me. He loved her so much and he still does now. Christina never told me how she died and got stuck in my body. It seems like she was sent here for some kind of punishment. She's been in here for awhile and I never remembered her telling me how this all happened. I quietly got off my bed and slipped out my room. I was looking for the kitchen and I finally found it. Their house was huge so that's why it took me awhile. I went searching everywhere for the kinifes, but they hid them good. They seemed a bit protective over Frankie so that's probably why. I finally found them and took a medium size sharp knife with me back to my room. I closed the door, and looked and my wrist for a bit. Cutting my wrist wasn't going to do anything, but I'll take it to the next level. My heart racing fast as I put the knife on my chest. Boom,boom,boom was all I felt.
Chapter 7
Debbie's Point Of View:
Heat going around all over my body made it even hard for me to breathe. This is it. It was my time to go; that's what I was here for anyways to mess up people's lives and then kill myself. What was I going to leave behind when I leave? I have no one to support me anymore and no one obviously cares about me. An electric shock went through my body; It made me jump and fall to the ground. The knife fell out my hands. I couldn't reach it because I was too tired and weak to get it. I guess the shock just wore my body out. There was a knock on my door. "Debbie!" the person called out. I didn't repsond, I couldn't let them see me like this. They walked in my room, it was Nick. He saw me laying there on the floor. "Deb what happened?" he asked. He grabbed me off the ground and carried me to the bed and set me there. "I don't know what happened. I felt this shock in my body and I just fell to the ground" I said. He saw the knife on the floor and picked it up. "This is what you were planning on doing right now" He said. I ignored him. "I'm going to stay with you tonight and keep an eye on you, I can't trust you now" he shrugged. Why can't he trust me? Nick layed on the cold floor next to the bed. I threw a pillow at him so he could rest his head somewhere "Thanks, well goodnight"he said. I ignored him. Why is Nick everywhere? He's getting on my nerves. I looked beside me on the floor and saw nick, sound asleep already. The electric shock was Christina, I thought. Why did she make me suffer from the horrible pain? I guess she hates me too. Everyone does. Where did the knife go? I want it, I need it. The pain shocked again through my body. "Stop it!" I screamed. Luckily no one heard me. I layed there looking at the ceiling for 5 minutes. I closed my eyes and drifted off into a deep deep sleep. I felt cold. I was at the park. It was a dark day. Lighting and thunder roaring in the sky. Why was I standing out here, am I stupid? I looked around and I saw a couple holding hands. They both weren't soaked from the rain, why not? I didn't know who they were, but they seemed happy. I walked closer to them,and they didn't notice me. Waving and talking didn't help. It was Nick, but who was the girl. Oh my gosh! It was Christina. I've never seen her before, but I heard her thoughts. Just some of them though. She was in love with him. She looked beautiful and she glowed. A perfect radiant light. I watched them. "I love you!"Nick said. Christina smiled. Her teeth were white as snow. He leaned into kiss her, but she looked the other way and stopped him. "I can't do this. Nick, don't....."she said. Don't what? Ugh. Everything went dark and faded away. "Deb?"I heard, words coming back to mind. I open my eyes, it was Nick. "What?"I said, rubbing my eyes. He got off the ground and stood up. He leaned in forwards towards me. "Are you ok?"he asked. Everything became clearer "Yes. Why?". His eyes met with mine. His eyes were beautiful. Was I falling in love with him? No. "Because you were calling my name"he mentioned. Oh my gosh, my dream. I couldn't. I don't want to. Ugh, why does he have to be so irresistable? His smile was killer. The way he cared for me was sweet. I've been knowing him for only a day. I was falling for him, but I can't tell anyone. The only one who knows is Christina. "No, I didn't"I said while bitting my lip. "Maybe i'm just dreaming" he said. I laughed a little bit. I don't think he noticed. Who wouldn't love Nick?
Chapter 8
The past two weeks staying with the Jonas's was fun. They made me feel like part of there family. Hanging out with Nick,Joe, and Kevin was fun. I was happy, but still felt empty. I'd cut every night, and hide it from Nick. I promised him I would never do it again and I broke it. He knew nothing of my life before I moved here except about my parents. I was scared to tell him.
*2 weeks later*
My friend called me earlier that day and told me that my Best Friend died from a drug overdose. Holding back my tears was the hard part, but I couldn't no longer. I bursted into tears. Why me? First my parents and then my best friend. My life was hell. I open the door out of my room and Nick saw me. He was sitting on the sofa with Kevin. I headed towards the front door. "I have to go"I sobbed. I opened the door quickly and ran. Running away to be alone. Getting away from everybody as possible. I looked back and saw Nick running after me. I was loosing my breath, Gasping for air. Where was I running to? He was still chasing me. The pressure was booming. I took the knife with me before I left and I grabbed it out of my pocket. I stopped running. Nick was still far back. I could do it now. The only thing I concentrated on was the knife on my wrist. I slit my wrist again and again. Watching the blood coming going down my arms almost made me faint. Drip drop, drip drop was all I heard around me. The blood on my arm dripped on the sidewalk. "Debbie!"Nick screamed. He ran to me and held me in his arms, getting blood on his shirt. "Nick i'm sorry"I cried " i broke our promise". He looked to me and then to my bloody arms. "It's gonna be ok, we'll clean up your cuts"he said.
The sudden touch of our hands together made things alright. He didn't care if he had gotten blood on himself. All he cared about was making sure if I was going to be alright. My heart racing faster and faster, almost skipping beats. It felt like I was going to die then and there. We reached the house and walked inside. He brought me to the living room. I lay there on couch waiting for him to come back with bandages. "I'm back"he smiled. His smile was something i've never seen before, it was gorgeous. "Hey"I said as i sat up on the couch. He wrapped my wrist. Looking at the blood made me sick. I have never cut that deep, and watched the blood ooze out like that. "What happened?"he asked. I bit my lip. I felt so uncomfortable to talk about it. I couldn't tell him that though. He sat next to me, waiting for an answer. "My best friend died from an overdose. I don't know I just went crazy; like I had no reason to live for anymore because no one cared. My life is horrible"I said. I could hear the foot steps coming down the stairs. It was Kevin. He came running in the living room. "Hey guys! Let's watch tv"he said as he picked up the remote. Nick and I looked at him. "Oh sorry. Maybe later"Kevin told us. He left the room. Nick gazed into my eyes "Look you may think that no one cares about you, but me and my family do. Deb your an amazing girl and I hope you see that. Your beautiful, smart, and sweet. I know life is rough now, but it's like that for everyone. Everyone has there ups and downs; just remember that God is always in control and that you learn to trust him. It's going to get better. I care about you. Look cutting is never gonna help"Nick mentioned. Why is Nick always right? I didn't know what to say. But I still feel the way I felt before, just a little. I can't tell him that. "Thanks! I'm sorry for this, and making you run. Also getting blood on your shirt. I'm sorry also for breaking our promise. I don't know if I can promise you that anymore"I said. He looked a bit sad "It's ok. People change and promises are broken, right?". Ugh. He is just so amazing, I thought. I'm in love with him, but i'm sure he doesn't like me. "Ok cool. Thanks for understanding and caring about me"I said. His eyes met with mine. He leaned into to kiss me. Kevin intruded "Are you guys done... Oops!". Me and Nick looked at him. "I better get going"I said getting up going back to my room "thanks again". Nick smiled and watched me leave.
Chapter 9 (LOVE THIS CHAPTER)
"What was that all about?"kevin asked. I glanced at Kevin and put my face in my hands. "Kevin, I'm in love with two girls"I murmured. Kevin sat next to me, and put his hands on my back. "You still love her, huh? Nick, I think it's time to let her go. She is dead. She was a great girl and we know she is in a better place"Kevin pointed out. "I love you!"Christina said, the words ringing in my ears. I felt like she was with me everywhere, she's not dead. I could feel it. I wish she could just come to me. "I can't ever stop loving her. Kevin, she was just..... amazing. I can't describe my love for her. But I love Debbie to. Everything about her reminds me of Christina. I don't know anymore"I spoke. Frankie came running with his toys screaming "Guys! Watch this". He stood there watchin us. Kevin spoke"Frankie this is not a good time now". Frankie nodded and stormed out of the room, fidgeting with his toy. "Nick... I know it's hard to let her go, but Debbie is..... Here and Christina is not. Did you tell Debbie about her?"Kevin asked. This world is getting tougher and tougher by the seconds. I can't tell Debbie about her, I don't know what she would say. It's hard to tell her how I feel. I love Debbie. "I can't tell Debbie about her"I stated "thanks though". Kevin put his arm on my shoulder "Your welcome buddy. Now I have to get ready because Nicole is coming over for dinner tonight". Kevin slowly got off the couch and headed upstairs. I sat there thinking for a moment. "Don't save me"she whispered in my ear. I stood there smiling watching her leaving, walking through the long narrow hallway heading to the plane. She looked at me once more. [Authors note: This was a flashback Nick had. This happened in "Just Friends"]. It was my fault she died. I didn't save her. Why did I listen to her?
*Later that night. After dinner*
Debbie's POV:
Nick brought me outside in the backyard. "Dinner was great, remind me to thank your mom"I smiled. Nick laughed at me "Her dinners are always good, that's why I love her. So how are your wrist from earlier?"he asked. I unwrapped the bandage and looked at the cuts. "Better, I guess. Thanks for asking"I spoke. He smiled and held my hand. Why is he acting all weird? He was stuttering. "Is something wrong?"I asked. He didn't say a word. His cold lips immediately touch mine. I broke the kiss. "I'm sorry"he said. My hand slipped away from his and I wrapped my arms around his neck. "Don't be"I whispered. His hands fell down my waist. This had felt so real to me. I never felt something like this before and I liked it alot.
"I think their watching us from inside"I said, gazing into his gorgeous brown eyes. He looked away and his eyes followed the house. He saw Joe, Kevin, Sydney,and Nicole watching us and laughing. "They are watching us. We need to go somewhere private"he said. I could feel the warm heat on his skin. I smiled "Maybe later. Let's go back inside". I grabbed his hand and lead the both of us inside. We looked at all of them, they all smirked. Joe couldn't help but breakout and laugh. Sydney nudged his arm and whispered "Stop!".
*Upstairs in Nick's room*
I sat there on his bed playing with my black gel bracelets. I couldn't help but think about us and what happened back there. I have to ask him. I have to ask him, I kept telling myself. I didn't want to, but she forced it out of me "Nick are we?". "Together?"he interrupted. I nodded. "I don't know. What happened back there was totally..... But i liked it alot, you know? I like you alot, Deb. I care about you so much"he said. He held my hand. "I like you to, but why would you like a girl like me. Im just so.... I cut myself. I thought about killing myself also. Why?"I asked. How can I tell him all this? I've never felt this way about a guy before. Wouldn't Christina get mad at me? Nick is her's. She wants me to be with him though. I wish she and I knew what he were thinking now. We just knew that he still loved her, but he likes me also. This is too confusing. "Your just amazing the way you are"he said, his cheek brushing against mine. "Please Be Mine?"he whispered in my ear.(Author's Note: Nick asked the same thing in "Just Friends" to Christina). I twitched a little. Could this be happening, a rockstar asking me out? Oh please i'm dreaming. Someone pintch me. Electric shock went up skin. Christina took me seriously, I guess. Why does she do this to me and suffer from this horrible, shocking pain. I love Nick. I want to say yes, should I? The words slipping out of my mouth "Yes". Mrs. Jonas walked in on us, "Debbie, I think it's time for you to get some sleep now". I looked at Nick "See you in Morning!". His hand in mine lost grip, letting it go swiftly. I got off his bed quickly and walked out, showing a soft smile to Mrs. Jonas.
