Sorry If this gets to graphic or anything. I do apologize if anyone gets offended.

Chapter 2

Flashback to a week before

    “Hey you!” Matt’s voice could be heard booming through the phone. “Hey,” Joanna wanted to sound happy, but she knew the truth. Matt no longer made her feel good about herself. She always remembered when she feel in love with him. He was everything she could dream of. He was handsome, smart, helpful, and most of all innocent. Unlike most high schoolers, Joanna was innocent and was staying pure till marriage. She was often the center of many jokes since she wasn’t as “experienced” as everyone else. Yet Matt made her feel like she wasn’t alone. He accepted her morals and values from the start. He was perfect and quite the romantic. She thought she was in love.

    “Wanna hang out today?” He asked in a happy tone. Suddenly Joanna felt sick to her stomach. Though they’ve been dating five months, she should feel like this. After Matt’s act ended, she found out who the true Matt was. He really wanted to just have sex with her. She was heart broken when she found out. She knew what he tried to do whenever they hung out. “Uh, sure,” Joanna answers hesitantly. She loved him and just wanted to make him happy. She never had sex with him but he always made her feel guilty, like she didn’t want to make him happy. But what really made him happy, she couldn’t give him. I t brought her so much pain. Later she showed up at his house with the uneasiness of her mother. She knew what he wanted from her daughter. Yet how could she deny her daughter something that made her happy?

    Breathing nervously, she headed towards the house. He answered the door, smile on his face as he brought her to his room. She hated his room. He asked her what she wanted to do. In her mind, she wanted what she always wanted, just to spend time as a couple, like everyone else. But deep down, she knew he didn’t want that nor did he really care that she did. “I don’t know,” she answered, sadness in her voice that went unnoticed by her lover. “Come on. There must be something. Cause you know what I want to do,” he utters as he starts to make out with her. She hated this. He knew how uncomfortable this made her yet he did it anyway. He started to push her on top of the bed and asks her to take her shirt off. “Stop Matt!” She couldn’t take this anymore. He hurt her enough. “What?” Matt questions. He knows what she’s going to say. “Matt, this is not me,” she says in a hurt tone. “I know. But this is me,” was his response. He knew he could guilt her into anything. After a few moments of silence and pain, Joanna spoke out. “How come you asked me out if you knew who I am from the beginning?” She felt like she was deceived when she found out that he was putting on the innocent act. Like buying something from a toy shop and later finding out it was broken.

    Matt was shocked by her question. Why did he go out with her? After a few minutes, he answered, “I thought I could change you. I just wanted to get back into the dating scene.” With this, Joanna felt hot tears running down her cheeks. How could he want to change her?  She loved him exactly the way he was since the beginning. “Are you guys doing ok?” Matt’s mother asked as she walk into the room. Joanna quickly wiped her tears away and tried to look natural. She loved his mother. She always treated Joanna like part of the family. “We’re fine,” Joanna lied through her teeth. Deep down inside, she was crushed. Not only was her heart broken, she felt alone.