kaaayyso.
dedications. to all my girls who I'm close with on JBF.
you girls are like my big virtual family. even though we have never seen each other, it can still work. ; ]
the family part I mean. literally. x]
and to those of you who aren't on the list, let's get to know each other okay? :P
ellie
aimee
chelly
spencer
tricia
crystal
aisling
jessica marie [I remember talking to you back in the old days.. xD]
taiylor
kaaay. I haven't posted a poem oneshot in awhile.
anyways, so yeah. created on the spot. as usual. teehee ; ]
enjoy.
-- Steenie [:
Sweet Dreams.
poem oneshot.
Knowing that I'll never hold you, it tears me apart,
Feeling like I'll never kiss you, breaks my heart.
Not being able to hear your voice,
Not having a choice.
"Just sleep love" he said as he pulled me onto his chest. I later found his black sweater draped over me, as if it were a blanket.
I giggled. "Okay" I replied. We were counting the days until he had to leave for his world tour. We were counting the days we had together. But most importantly, we were counting the days we had left.
"Promise me one thing alright?" he asked suddenly after a long silence.
I began to play with his purity ring, unsure of my emotions. "S-Sure" I stamered. "Anything"
His grip around my waist tightened. "Promise that whatever happens, you'll continue on with your life as if you had never met me"
It hurts to say the truth, but it has to be right,
You have to accept, without a fight.
One day you'll see,
That you're finally free.
I was quiet for a long while, bot sure of what to say. We had been going out for exactly one year and four months. Tomorrow would be our fifth month. We were often an on/off couple. He had his music, his passion to worry about, and I had my.. photography. I love taking pictures.
"I don't want to promise that.." I said quietly. "It hurts".
He sighed and his grip loosened. I then suddenly wished that it didn't, because I knew that he was fustrated once again with me. Knowing that he was fustrated with me tore me in half.
"Ally, you have to do this for me" he said. "You knew this was coming".
I nodded my head. I did know. I just didn't want to think about losing him after all the things we've been through together. "I'll miss your kisses.. and your hugs.." I added quietly.
The colors fade to gray,
And you watch him walk away.
There's no sweet dreams,
To cover up your screams.
Everyone knew we weren't meant to be together forever. "I want you.." I said quietly. "I love you". I waited for him to tell me he loved me back, but in return, I got nothing. He really didn't want me. He really didn't love me.
"Just sleep" he commanded. "Everything is going to be okay".
I suddenly felt angry. How could he say that everything was going to be okay when I was losing him? In fact, how could he be so calm? Didn't he love me at all? "Say something.." I said quietly. "Do something".
And after that, I wanted to kill myself. At that very moment, he easily lifted me up off his chest and onto the wooden planks of his childhood treehouse. I felt tears slip from my eyes as I stared at him. His dark curls glistened under the moonlight, and he looked like a vampire from under the moonlight.
He took my face into his big palms and looked at me seriously. I could see no emotion in his familiar brown eyes.
"Ally, I want you to promise me that your life will go on as though you had never met me" he repeated firmly. "You must".
I'll watch as you go without another word,
Words are spoken, but nothing is heard.
Screams and nightmares are made,
As sweet dreams begin to fade.
I shook my head with tear filled eyes. "I can't" I said. "I won't".
He looked away for a split second, before looking back at me. "I'll kiss you once, and no more".
I then felt his rough lips on mine and the tears spilled out like a waterfall. I couldn't stop. I just wanted the moment to end. He then stopped, stared at me for the last time, stood up, and began silently climbing down the ladder leaving me alone.
I suddenly wished that you'd give me a last dance,
Holding, me kissing me, give me a chance.
But I now realize, after all the screams,
I was never meant to have sweet dreams.
