Right now  i am not sure what to do, whether it be scream cry or just run away from it all. I need out I am tired of feeling this way and feeling like I dont amount to anything it seems like every guy I end up with does somethign and hurts me. Yes I know Im not the skinniest or hottest girl in the world but I have lost at least 50lbs because everytime i looked in the mirror i hated what I saw but to have some guy say im a peice of crap and then hurt me like he did makes me angry with myself. I feel like there has got to be more then what is here and i need to figure out what that is

Ok So I am 19 and a college student. But alot  of the times these days i feel completly and utterly lost. I feel like I will be a failure and let everyone down close to me. So I dont want to be a doctor or a laywer so what. I want to follow my dreams not my parents or anyone elses. Although my dreams are less obtainable it seems then the laywer or doctor dreams I stil lhave to try. Right? I just feel like sometimes i should give and do what they want. But would that really make me happy no it wouldnt. I want to do music I want to sing dance act be involved in that atmosphere. But I do know it is smart to get all of my college education so I have something to fall back on. But I can use PR and journalism in that area to. I guess do you ever feel like your not good enough?

Hey its my first blog! Just wanted to say hi agian. I also want to say I am glad I have jonined the site and I hope to meet new friends soon. We all love the jonas brothers so thats a plus I guess if you want send me a message of some sort thanks