CHAPTER 1

My name is Lindsey. The most amazing thing ever happened to me! Well, before i tell you, you should probably know a little bit about me. So I am 15 years old. I have lived in a small town my whole life where nothing exciting ever happens. I live with my parents, my sister Sami,18, and my brother Matt, who is 17. My whole life has been very usual. I've been a cheerleader practically my whole life! I absolutely adore it! I have my best friends, Lexi and Meghan. We have been inseperable since the first day of kindergarten! We are all so different, but alike in so many ways! But one thing that was very weird about us, was that we all had the same birthday! That may seem like the biggest similarity that we have, but your wrong! We are total music fans! We all sing and play an instrument. We have been in all the school musicals together, of course we were the leads. We always wanted to start a band, but we never really had the time to plan, and organize. We had billions of songs writen, just no time. I was always at cheerleading practice, Lexi at soccer practice, and Meghan just did whatever she felt like doing! I also had the most amazing boyfriend ever, Steven. He was ther perfect gentlemen. We were the couple that everyone wished could be them!  My life was great, it seemed like nothing could ever go wrong. Until the absolute WORST day of my life...

CHAPTER 2

 Everyone's parents fight, that's obvious. But mine were pretty bad. No one ever knew though. I was amazing at hiding it, and acting like we were the perfect family. One day when i got home from practice, the worst fight was going on between my parents. I was used to it though. So i just went on up to my room, shut the door, and turned up my stereo. The only thing that could keep me happy up in my room when my parents were fighting was the Jonas Brothers. Even though i never acted like it, my parents constant fighting was really eating away at me, but the Jonas Brothers kept me sane. They were like my outlet to happiness. The best thing is when you can play and sing along with them too! See I can play the guitar and sing. So thats what I do. I just turned on Hello Beautiful and started playing when i heard a crash downstairs. Ohmigosh. What is going on down there. It sounds worse then ever, i thought. So i turned down my radio and ran downstairs to find my mom sitting on the floor crying and my dad gone. "Mom!" i yelled, "What happened? Why are you crying? Where's dad? What was that crash?" i was definitely worried! My mom was able so get out, "Me and Dad are getting divorced. We cant handle hiding our arguments acting like nothing is wrong. Dad is going to go to Arizona, and stay with his family for a while." I was in shock. I didn't know what to say, what to think, anything! My world was falling apart. the next thing i knew, i was running out of my house towards Lexi's house(she lives 3 houses down from me). Thankfully she just got home from soccer practice. As soon as she saw me she just hugged me and let me cry! Meg was over almost immediately after. They just sat there with me in the front yard crying, telling me everything was going to be okay. I couldn't believe this was happening! Even if i didnt have my family all together, at least i had my best friends, my boyfriend, and the Jonas Brothers.

CHAPTER 3

With all the drama taking place in my life at home, school was better then i ever couldve imagined. Other then Lexi and Meghan, no one at school knew about my parents, and i wanted it to stay that way. All that my other friends knew was that my dad was away on business. Thank God they never got to know my parents, and that my dad has never traveled for business in his life! But just seeing Steven there waiting at my locker made me so happy! Just feeling his warmth when i hugged him made me forget all my problems! But i was also forgetting one other, very important thing. "So babe," he said. "What do you want for your birthday??" "My birthday? Ohmigosh! i totally forgot! My birthday is Saturday! All i want, is to be with you," i said with a grin. "Okay then," he said with a look in his eye like he was up to something, "you will get that then!" As i mentioned before, me, Lex, & Meg all had the same birthday. So our plan was that the three of us were going to go have a spa day together, then that night was my date with Steven. But that is not what happened at all. Well we got nice and pampered during the day, and it was amazing! the whole day was working out perfectly. I had an amazing dress to wear on my date, and i didnt have to worry about Meg & Lexi cause they were spending their night with their families. When Steven came to pick me up for my date, he told me we had to make a quick stop at one of his buddie's houses. "Okay. I guess that's fine. I dont get why you can't stop after the date though. But it's fine." So we pull up to his friend Derik's house. "Come with me!" Steven said with a grin as he started to get out. "Why? i dont really want to." i complained. "just come on!" he yelled as he pulled me from the car. I was so confused when he starting taking me towards the entrance to their backyard, but i figured i would just go with it. When we walked through that gate, the biggest surprise of my life was standing there!

 CHAPTER 4

Right there, standing 10 feet in front of me was none other then the Jonas Brothers! ...along with like tons of people from school. But to be honest! The only people i even noticed where those dark haired hotties! It was kind of throwing me off because, me and Nick locked eyes, and it seemed like if i never looked away, i would never have to worry about all the pain and drama i had been experiencing in the past week. But i knew i couldnt just stand there. I gave him a look like I'm so sorry! and started freaking out! "OMJ! OMJ! OMJ! OMJ! Thank you so much for all of this? Who planned all of this?" Ohmigosh i cant believe i got thrown a surprise party and the JONAS BROTHERS were there! The next thing i knew was that Lexi and Meghan stepped out! "OHMIGOSH" we all screamed in unsion! "We both got here before you! They surprised us too! Can you believe this?!" Lexi was totally freaking out! "I know! I cant believe they got the Jonas Brothers here!" i was still in total shock! "Speaking of the Jonas Brothers," Meg said with a little grin, "was it just me or were you and Nick like totally staring at eachother when you walked in?!" "No! Well, i dont really know what that was, but im head over heels for Steven so it doesn't even matter!" I was kind of defensive. I just really didnt want anything screwed up between me and Steven. What we had was so good..atleast it was.

CHAPTER 5

So the party was going great! All my friends were there from school. I got amazing presents from everyone. The one thing though that was missing was...my dad. I was totally upset about it. And for some reason, the only person that could tell that i was hiding my feeling was Nick. "Hey! Hows your party going?" he came up with a smile! "Great! Everything's...great." i said optimisticly. "Whats wrong? Isnt this party what you wanted?" For some reason, I could tell immediately that Nick was someone i could trust and talk to. He just kind of had that nature about him i guess. "Come over here" I said in a whisper. So he followed me to the side of the house where no one was. "Can i trust you with a secret?" i asked. "Of course you can!" he said with a cute little smile. "Well, im pretty upset because my dad isnt here. See, everyone thinks my life is so perfect. But its anything but that. My parents fight all the time, but last week they couldnt take it anymore and my dad left," a silent tear fell down my cheek. "All my friends except for Lexi and Meghan think that he is away on business. But i have no idea whats going to happen. I dont know when hes going to come back, or if ill ever see him again. He went to Arizona to stay with his family for a while. I just.."i started to sob. Nick couldnt have handled the situation any better. He just sat there, and wiped my tears. "I know things may feel like everything is falling apart and you have nothing, but with christ you have everything!" he said very soft soothingly. I knew that quote! that was his favorite quote! But he was right! I gave him a huge hug! "Nick, you are such an amazing guy! Thank you so much." Uh-oh. This wasnt good. I was starting to like him. But i cant, because i love Steven. But, did i really love him? I just got that thought out of my mind. I wiped my tears and put a smile on, i didnt want anyone to know what just happened. "You promise you wont tell anyone about this?" i asked Nick. "Of course i wont. I know that your hurting, i wouldnt want anyone to know that." Nick said sympathetically. "Thanks." I said smiling giving him another hug. Everything was going great again. I was pushing the thought of my dad out of my mind, but another thought kept entering my head. One that was going to cause trouble..

CHAPTER 6

What i didnt know until later was that Steven was watching/listening to everything me and Nick were talking about. I mean, its not like anything happened, so he didnt want to say anything to ruin my day, since he now knew about my family issues. Well, after i talked with Nick, i went around and socialized with everyone for the next hour. But Nick always seemed close, and we would always catch eachother gaze. I was just trying to ignore it as much as possible. So about half way through the party, The boys performed. Just a few songs, one of which was Hello Beautiful. So they of course serenaded me, Meghan, & Lexi. The boys did amazing, DUH! but after the song was over, we hugged all the guys and thanked them again. But when i hugged Nick, he held on. But i didnt exactly stop hugging him either. But once we realized all those people were watching we immediately let go of eachother. That was the last song they were going to perform that night, so the DJ took over. The first song was a slow song,"This is for the 3 birthday girls!" he said. "This is for you to dance with your special someone." Of course, Steven came over. I layed my head on his chest after a few moments of dancing. "I love you," he said to me. "I love you too Nick." Ohmigosh! Did i just say that! Oh please, please, please, tell me that Steven didnt hear that. But of course he did. "What did you just say?" he asked me shocked. "Um, well, uh. Look i didnt mean it." "Oh i bet you do!" he yelled. "I saw you two lock eyes when i brought you in! I saw the two of you talking all alone! I saw that extra long hug up on stage!" he was furious! "No! Please stop! i didnt mean to say that. Nothing is going on!" i was freaked! "If there's nothing going on then why could you tell Nick about your dad leaving, huh? You cant trust me, but you can trust some guy that you met a couple hours ago?!" By this time, everyone was watching us. "Steven, please stop. Lets just go somewhere else and talk. Please." Oh-no! What have i done? I was so upset. I was literally on the verge of tears. "I dont want to talk to you. I've been nothing but a great boyfriend to you over the past year and this is how you re-pay me?? I'm done. We are over!" he yelled as he stomped out of the party. I was so shocked and upset. Everyone just saw my life completely crumble beneath me. The most envied couple just broke up, and now everyone knew about my dad. The only thing that i could think of doing was to run. Just run away from everything. No one cared. Most of them were happy to find out that my life was as perfect as they all thought it was. But thats what i did. I just ran until i couldnt run anymore. I got to my house and just collapsed in my front yard. I was sobbing so hard. I was alone, and upset, and just hurt. But i wasnt alone after all...

CHAPTER 7

"Lindsey?" i hear someone say over my sobs. I looked up and it was Nick. "What are you doing here?" I said in between my crying. "You are so upset. I couldnt just watch you leave here alone like that. So i followed you." Nick said quietly. I couldnt even speak. I was just so upset. So Nick continued to talk. "I am so sorry! This is all my fault. I never meant to cause problems." "It's not your fault." i said starting to stop crying. "Me and steven were just too perfect i guess." I started crying again. There was nothing Nick could say to make me feel better. So he just sat there with me, holding me, telling me that everything was going to be okay. But it wasn't. Steven was gone, my dad was gone, what i else could i lose?! After i stopped crying, i asked Nick if he wanted to come into my house. "Sure." He said with a little smile. "Do you want to see my room?" i asked. "I would love too!" he said with a grin, trying to lighten the mood. It worked. So we went upstairs to my room and the first thing he saw was my guitar. "You play?" he asked. "Yeah. It was the only thing to keep me sane while my parents were fighting." "Will you play something for me?" he asked with a smile. "Well how could i say no to that face?!" I laughed. So i started playing Hello Beautiful. I didnt realize that i was singing it too, it just kind of came out naturally. When i finished he just sat there with a smile on his face. "Wow." He said. "You are amazing!! How did you get so good? You are an amazing singer too!" I was really happy that he liked it. "Thanks!" i grinned. "I just kind of taught myself how to play. But i have always been a singer. Me, Lexi, and Meghan are always in the musicals and stuff at school." I was still just smiling. I was so happy i impressed him. Better yet, i was happy that he came for me. He was something very special about him. And things could only get better.

CHAPTER 8

The time that me and Nick spent together up in my room just flew by! I left that party at like 830, the next thing i knew it was 1230AM and we were still talking! Nick and I had gotten to know eachother so much more! It was great. He was really making me feel so much better about my dad, and really about Steven too. I realized that i didnt need Steven in my life. But that i needed Nick. I wasnt sure if he was feeling the same way about me too, though. So i didnt say anything. Until Nick asked me, "So what made Steven go off when you were dancing?" Uh-oh. I didn't want to tell him what i said. "Oh it was nothing really." i said looking down at my feet. "Well obviously it something for him to explode that way!" he said looking concerned. "Well, he uh, told me that he loved me, and umm,"i was so nervous. "You can tell me, i promise you can trust me." Nick said sweetly. I took a deep breath and just said it. " He told me he loved me and i said i love you too Nick." i just stopped. I cant believe that i just told him that! He just kinda sat there, looking at me. "Ohmigosh! i am so dumb. I said. Obviously a big star like you isnt going to like me. Im so sorry." i started to get up when he grabbed my arm and pulled me back into a kiss. "What was that for?" i asked totally confused. "I love you Lindsey!" he said. "From the moment we locked eyes when you first got to the party i knew." I couldnt believe this was happening. All i could do was just smile like an idiot. He pulled me back into a long kiss. It was amazing until all of a sudden my door swings open. It was Joe and Kevin! "Nick, what are you...?" he stopped. "Ooooh!" He said with a big grin! "Sorry for interupting little bro!" Kevin said smiling too. "We didnt mean to, well interupt anything." I was so embarrassed and shocked. I was so into Nick i forgot about everyone else! Nick was a little mad. "Guys!" he said giving them a look like what the heck are you doing! " Why wounldnt you just call me to find out where i was?" "HELLO! We did! Check your phone!" Joe said laughing. Nick pulled out his phone. "Oh...my bad!" We all started laughing. There was 15 missed calls from them! "Well atleast you guys are okay," Kevin said with a smile. "Yeah, we are most definitely okay." Nick said with a smile looking at me. I started to blush. "Aww! Thats cute! Shes blushing!" Joe said all cute. "Look, we dont wanna make you leave but mom and dad were worried. And its late. So you need to leave. Sorry." Kevin said being the responsible older brother. "Okay." Nick said giving them a look like give us a minute! "Oh, okay. I get it. Kevin i dont think we are wanted right now!" Joe said laughing. "Alright. You have 5 minutes. We will be waiting downstairs." Kevin said. "It was really  nice meeting you guys." i said finally. "You too." they both said, and walked out closing the door. "Well you heard them," Nick said. "I only have 5 minutes." I smiled, "5 minutes is perfect!" We went back to kissing. We left just enough time to give eachother our numbers. "I promise i will call you tomorrow. Then we can hang out." Nick said sweetly. "And you probably didnt know but we live like 5 minutes away from here. We just moved in last week!" I was so excited! "Okay. I'm counting on that call!" With a final kiss he walked out the door. Only to return a second later saying, "I love you Lindsey." My face lit up. "I love you too, Nick. I love you too."

CHAPTER 9

I couldnt believe it! With how bad my night started out, i ended it as the happiest girl ever! It was almost like fate! God really did have a plan for everything. When one door closed-Steven-another opened-Nick. And i was perfectly happy with that. What i wasnt so happy about though  was still my family problems. Just because I now had Nick, didnt mean that my dad was coming back. But i was happy for now. About 5 minutes after Nick, Joe, & Kevin left Sami and Matt came running into my room! "Oh thank god your here!" Sami exclaimed as she came running to give me a hug. Matt was close behind her. "We were so worried about you! Mom just called us and told us about the what happened and we knew you would need us." "If mom was so worried then why didnt she come for me?" i asked with a mean tone to my voice. See i loved my mom so much, but i never really understand some of the things she did. "You know what," i started. "Its okay. I'm okay. I'm great actually." Matt and Sami were so confused! "Wait what about what happened with Steven? I never expected you to be happy." Sammi said. "Not that we dont want you to be happy, cause we do? But.."Matt added in. "Guys! Guys! its okay! I was really upset, but Nick came after me and just let me cry and let everything out." "Nick?" Sami said with a little smile. "Yes! And actually after i was done crying we came up here and just talked for hours. And guess what!" "What?!" they both cried out in unison. "Well...we are kinda a couple now. Well, not officially, he didnt ask me to be his girlfriend. But he kissed me!" I couldnt help but grin! "Lindsey!" Matt yelled! "I am your older brother! I dont want to know these things!" We all started laughing. "Well im really glad your okay, and im even happier that you found someone new. Just be careful okay?" Sami said being a typical protective older sister. "I will i promise! Actually, Nick, Joe, and Kevin live right down the street. So Nick said he will call me tomorrow and hang out!" I said with a smile. "Joe?Kevin?" Sami asked with a little grin. "If you want you guys can meet them if that would make you feel better!" i said knowing she was dying to see Joe and Kevin. "YAY!" she screamed! We all laughed once again. "Lindz," Matt started. "Dont be mad at mom. You know she handles things differently then everyone else." "Yeah, yeah." I said. But the truth was, it didnt really bother me that much. As long as i had Nick, Lexi, Meghan, Sami, and Matt in my life, everything was going to be okay.

CHAPTER 10

I had had such an exhausting day i fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow! I woke up around 945 the next morning to When You Look Me In the Eyes. Tell  me that you love me. I immediately knew that Nick was calling because that is what i set for the him the night before. When i picked up i tried hard not to sound like i just woke up. "Hello?" "Oh im sorry! Did i wake you up?" Nick said. "Yeah, but its okay. Id rather talk to you then be sleeping!" I said sweetly. "Your so amazing." Nick cutely said right back. "So whats up?" i said changing the subject. "Well, I was gonna see if like in a couple hours you wanted to go do something?" "Of course i would!" i excitedly said. "But is that okay if you all come over when you pick me up. My brother and sister want to meet you, Kevin, and Joe. They are kind of protective." "yeah! thats no problem! They could probably just stay there while i take you out...we can just walk to where we're going." Nick said. "Okay! That sounds great!" I was so pumped! This was like our first date! "Well we will be at your house at 11. Does that sound good?" He asked. "Perfect!" i exclaimed! "Okay, well i will see you then." He said. "Okay, bye Nick." "Wait Lindsey!" he yelled really fast. "Yeah?" "I love you." he said softly. I grinned. "I love you too, Nick." We hung up. Then i started freaking out! What was i going to wear? I should i wear my hair? What shoes? "SAMI!!!!!!!" i yelled! She came running. "What is it?" "Nick is taking me out for a date in two hours and i have no idea what to wear!" I was spazzing out! "You are lucky i was already awake!" she laughed. "Now lets find you something to wear." "Oh yeah," i started. "Joe and Kevin are coming over too to hang out while me and Nick are gone. So After you help me, i'll help you!" "Wow you read my mind!" She said with a grin. "Thats what sisters are for! Now lets get to work!" After about 45 minutes we picked out a really cute dress. It wasnt too dressy, but dressy enough. (http://urbanupdater.files.wordpress.com/2007/04/babydolldress.jpg) Then i got peach colored flats and my matching purse. I started straightening my hair. But changed my mind to curling it into a loose side pony tail. It looked much better. I got finished getting ready just in time for the boys to get there. As soon as i heard the doorbell ring i knew it was them. I went running to get it, but knowing Matt, he was already there interogating them. I ran down the stairs! "Hey guys! Great to see you again! Come on in! Sami! The boys are here!" She came running down. Her and Joe locked eyes! "Hey everyone." she managed to get out. Well after her and Joe's initial shock, everyone got used to eachother. "Okay, well now that everyone has a little time to talk, me and Lindsey have to go!" Nick said. "Okay! Bye! Be careful!" Matt yelled. Then Kevin said, "Make sure you protect her and are a gentleman!" giving Nick a look. "I always am!" Nick said with a smile. And out the door we went! I was sooo excited!

CHAPTER 11

As soon as we shut the door behind us, Nick grabbed me and kissed me! "What was that for?" i asked. "I missed you!" He said. "I just saw you last night." i said with a smile. "And i couldnt stand being away from you that long." he said all cute. "You are so amazing! How did i get so lucky?" I really did feel so blessed to have him. He just hugged me and grabbed my hand. "Come on! I have a surprise for you!" He yelled as we started walking away from my house. There was a park near by my house that was as beautiful as can be. The grass was always green, the trees big and tall, and when the sun set it was the most beautiful view! So when Me and Nick got there i was really excited! I just wanted to spend as much time with him as i could. So we continued to walk through the park when we got to a piknic blanket, with a basket. A blanket was also there in case we got cold. I was so excited! I just jumped into his arms! "You are the best!" I said excitedly. So we went and sat down on the blanket. We talked and talked for hours. There was never a dull moment! I kept thinking, This is so perfect! As long as I'm with Nick, i will be happy! I didnt even notice that the sky began to get darker as the sun was setting. We were just laying there looking up at the sky. "This is the most beautiful thing that i have ever seen!" i exclaimed as the sun began to go down. "It most definitely is." Nick said. I looked over at him and he was looking at me. I started to blush. "Lindsey. I've been waiting for the right moment to ask you this all night, and i think it is now." "What is it?" I said softly. "Will you be my girlfriend?" he asked. "I thought you would never ask! YES! Of course i will be your girlfriend!" I was so happy! We just sat on that blanket and kissed and kissed. It was amazing! You know how in movies there is always that kiss at the end of the movie that is just so romantic? Well our kiss was that time a billion! It was the best moment of my life! After we caught our breath (haha) we layed back down. It started to get a little chilly so we got under the other blanket. I didnt know but i fell asleep on Nicks chest. I felt so safe, so protected when i was with him. Feeling his warmth made me feel like nothing bad would ever happen again. But i was so so wrong..

CHAPTER 12

I woke up to Nick shaking me. "Lindsey. Lindsey. We need to go home! Its like 1230 and Joe, Kevin, Matt, & Sammi are freaking out." "What?" I was too tired to comprehend anything! So Nick leaned down and kissed me. "Okay!" i said sitting up fast. "Im awake now!" i said with a laugh. Nick started laughing too. We got all of our stuff together and walked home, hand in hand. We walked in my door and all four of them-Joe, Sammi, Kevin, & Matt-jumped up! "Where have you guys been?" Sammi was yelling! "Yeah! You guys had us worried sick!" Kevin came in. "I was about to call the police i was so scared!" Matt was yelling too. Then Joe chimes in, "I was okay with it." He just had on a face like he was sooo cool! We all started dying laughing. "We're sorry." Nick started. "Yeah," started. "Its all my fault though. i was super tired and fell asleep. Dont get mad at Nick. He was just being a good boyfriend." i said with a smile. "BOYFRIEND?!" everyone yelled at one time. "Me and Nick just laughed. "Yes. Boyfriend." Nick said very matter factly. We just looked at eachother and smiled. "I'll walk you out," i said with a little grin. We walked outside and closed the door. "Sorry!" i said. "I let that one slip!" "dont even worry about it."Nick said softly. "I wasnt going to try to hide it! Im proud to be dating you!" I started to blush again. "I love when you get embarassed." he said all cute. Then he kissed me. We kissed til Joe and Kevin opened the door. "Guys!"Joe yelled! "You gotta quit doing that!" We started laughing. "Come on, Lover-Boy," Kevin started. "Mom wants us home." "Okay," Nick said with a sigh. "I'll call you tomorrow Lindz. Love you." "Love you too, Nick." I have never been so happy. I couldnt believe that i was having the worst day of my life yesterday, to having the best day of my life that day. It was too good to be true. I walked into my house just smiling. I was in love and there was nothing else to it. I just went up and plopped down on the couch. Matt and Sammi were just watching me. Once i snapped out of my phase, i noticed that they had a look like something was wrong. "Guys," i started slowly. "Whats wrong? Why are you acting like this?" Oh great! I just knew something bad happened. But i braced myself to hear it. "It's about Mom." Matt started. When Sammi started crying i knew something bad happened...

CHAPTER 13

"Ohmigosh! Whats wrong?!" I was freaking out now. "Lindsey," Matt started, "Why dont you sit down with us." "I DONT want to sit down! Just tell me what happened to mom!" Please let this all be a bad dream. Please please please! "Okay, well on the way home from work, Mom got hit by a drunk driver. We didnt know where you were, so thats why we are still here. But she's not doing very good, so we need to leave right now and get to the hospital." Matt was holding back tears, while Sammi was trying to pull herself together. Once again, i just stood there in shock. My whole body went numb.Please let me wake up from this terrible terrible dream! But it wasnt a dream. Everything was really happening. "Lindz..come on. Why are you just standing there?" Sammi asked worriedly. I continued to stand there, until i bolted out the door once again. I didnt know what to do. I didnt want to go see mom. I couldnt just sit there and look at my mother in pain like that. I was so mad at her for not being there for me like she shouldve been, now this happened. Not to mention Dad still hasnt come home. He was the one that always held things together, now he wasnt here. I felt like no one could ever make me feel better. Not even Nick, or Matt or Sammi. I felt so alone in this world. I kept running and running til i collapsed. I was running toward the park, but couldnt make it. My hard crying made it even harder to breathe. My legs gave out about 100 yards from the park. Unfortunately, it was on concrete. So now, instead of just hurting on the inside, i was hurting on the outside too. My legs and hands were all scraped up, not to mention i twisted my ankle and it was throbbing extremely bad. So i just layed there on that sidewalk and cried and cried. I never expected Sammi and Matt to come for me, they needed to be with Mom. So i figured i would just lay there and that would be it. My life was terrible and i couldnt take it anymore. All of a sudden i heard a voice. "It looks like you need some company." It was so familiar. "Nick?" i asked. But it wasnt Nick...

CHAPTER 14

"Joe? Kevin?" I was so confused. No one else cares about me. "Why dont you try Steven?" he said. I looked up completely shocked. "I dont understand. I thought you hated me? How did you even know i was here?" "I dont hate you," he said softly. "I just thought you were going to dump me, so i wanted to beat you to it. But obviously you werent going too. And for your second question, i looked out my window and saw you running, i knew something was up. I couldnt just leave you all alone." "Even though I had some blame, I still cant believe you did that in front of EVERYBODY! Obviously i didnt want anyone to know about my dad! What were you thinking?" I had just remembered how bad he hurt me. "Look Lindz, I'm so sorry. I wasn't thinking at all. I was just so upset, but that doesnt excuse my behavior. I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart. Please forgive me." It really did seem like he was sincere. And i couldnt say no to his adorable face. He spoke again, "Well now that i know you wont kill me, whats wrong? I've never seen you so upset." Then i remembered why i was laying on the ground crying. I started sobbing again. "My....mom." "What about her?" Steven said sitting down on the ground with me. I could barely get out any words. "Car accident...drunk driver....Not doing good." I completely lost it. Steven held me in his arms and just let me cry. "Hun," he began softly. "Why dont i take you to the hospital? You should be there. Wait, why arent you there?" I was finally able to speak in regular sentences. "Well, the night of the party when i ran out of there.." "Im so sorry again." Steven interupted. "Its okay, but anyways," i began again giving him a look, "When i ran out of Derik's crying, she didnt come after me. She didnt even come home that night. She has never been there for me. And i just didnt want to see her all banged up. Because then i would feel terrible for being mad. Even though i totally should. But, AGH! i dont know! I dont know what to think or feel." "It's okay, I'll be here for you. I promise." He said with a smile. "Are you sure? Can i really trust you this time?" I was a little optimistic. "I promise." He said with a little sparkle in his eye. "Fine, let's go." I was really nervous about going to the hospital to see my mom. But i knew it was the right thing to do. What wasnt the right thing to do was what happened after we got to the hospital..

CHAPTER 15

So i was feeling a little awkward riding with Steven all the way to the hospital. I had my hand sitting on my leg, and he reached over and grabbed it. I pulled it away. "What are you doing?" i asked shocked. "I just thought that would make you feel better. Sorry," he said sounding hurt. "Look, this really does mean a lot to me that your helping me like this, but...see well," I didn't know how to tell him me and Nick were together already. "What is it?" he asked looked concerned. "Okay, well Nick and I are kind of together." I was looking down at my hands the whole time. "Well, i kind of figured you were," he slowly said, "But I had to try again, just to make sure that if i had a chance, i didnt screw it up again." I couldn't believe how sweet he was being. I felt extremely guilty, because my feelings for Steven were starting to flood through me. I mean, it was only a couple days ago that we broke up, how could i not be still feeling a little something. But Nick, i love him! Don't I? Or do i love Steven? Agh i dont know what to think! By that time, we were already to the hospital. We got out of Steven's jeep and started walking to the entrance. But before we walked in, Steven stopped me. "Look, i know that you are extremely scared right now, but just know that i will always be here for you. And i will always love you!" Then he grabbed me and started kissing me! I couldnt believe it! I pushed him away! "What are you doing?!?!?!" i was so mad! "Why would you do that?! I wouldnt let you hold my hand, let alone start making out with me right when im getting ready to go see my mom in the hospital! Look I'm totally thankful for you coming for me when i was crying and upset. But i dont want you in my life as a boyfriend. I want you as a friend. I just cant go there with you again. I'm sorry." The more that i said, the angrier he got. "I cant believe you!! I know you still have feelings for me! Whether you want to admit it or not. I was the best thing that ever happened to you! A lot better then that pretty-boy Nick Jonas! How dare you even chose him over me?!" Then he grabbed me and tried to force me to kiss him. Once again i pushed him away. But before i could even start yelling at him, i heard, "What is going on?!" I looked over and Nick had just gotten to the hospital to be with me. "Nick! I swear it's not what it looks like! I came onto me! I told him i didn't want him as a boyfriend! I swear! I love you Nick!" I was so upset!No way could all this be happening to me! Just one more crappy thing in my life! "Do you honestly expect me to believe that Lindsey? Cause the way I'm seeing things, it looks like you could care less!" I could clearly tell he was hurt. "Please, just let me explain. I promise, i would never do anything to hurt you!" I was crying now. My life was just falling apart more and more every second. "Whatever," Nick was saying while walked away. "Please dont leave. Please." I was now sobbing. "Come here," Steven was saying. "I will be here for you!" "GET AWAY FROM ME! YOU ARE RUINING EVERYTHING!" I was so infuriated with him! "Fine, i see how it is. Have a nice life." Steven said smuggly as he got in his car. Now i really was alone. I knew I had to go see my mom, but there was no way i could take it. I had been through enough that night. But once again, things just got worse and worse..

CHAPTER 16

So of course, there was no way i was emotionally able to go see my mom! All i knew that i had to do was find Nick. I couldnt lose the one person in my life that really cared about me. Well, my first instinct was Call him! NOW!  So i did. Stupid mistake. Of course he wasnt going to answer my calls. He probably hated me! So my second instinct, Call Joe or Kevin! I figured they wouldnt pick up either, but i had to try! Ring, ring, ring. "Hello?" i heard someone answer. "JOE! Ohmigosh i'm so glad you picked up!" "Why what happened?" he could clearly tell i was upset. "Have you not talked to Nick?" i was so confused. I wouldve assumed the Nick told Joe and Kevin about it before anything else he did. "No, i havent. Why? What happened Lindsey?" I started to cry again. I was so upset about what had just happened. I was sick of being strong. I shouldnt have to be strong when all this is going on. "Where are you?" Joe asked worriedly. I was able to squeak out, "The hospital....my mom." Thats all i could possibly say. "Dont worry hun! We'll be there as soon as we can!" Even if i didnt have Nick, i was so happy that atleast i had Joe and Kevin. I knew they would help me get Nick back. They would understand. So i sat there, outside of that hospital, waiting for Kevin and Joe. Finally i saw car lights. They came running once they got out of the car. "Lindsey! Are you okay? We got here as soon as we could!" I just hugged and hugged them. "I am so happy that you guys are here!" And again, came the tears! "Its okay. We promise. Everything is going to be okay." They just sat there and took turns holding me until i finally cried myself out. "Okay," Kevin started, "Now that you're not crying. Whats going on?" I took a deep breath. "Okay, well you know when you guys left my house?" "Yes." Joe said. "Well, afer you guys left Matt and Sammi told me something really terrible." I almost lost it again. "Oh no! Here comes the tears again!" Joe said, trying to make me laugh. Good thing he did because it helped me get through what i was trying to say. "They told me that my mom was on her way home from work and got hit by a drunk driver. And that shes not doing very good at all." I told them everything. I told them about falling, and Steven coming. Then him hitting on me and trying to get back with me. Then came the hardest part. I had to tell them what happened with the kiss very carefully, and also what happened with Nick. "I promise guys. I love Nick. And Steven was the one kissing me! Honest. I was getting ready to start screaming at him when Nick came. He saw Steven try to kiss me and got all the wrong ideas in his head. When i tried to explain, he just stormed away." This was one of the worst part of explaining to them. I was trying my hardest not to cry. They could tell. "Okay, this is obviously a really bad situation. But we believe you 100%! We can tell when people are lying, and you most definitely arent! But Nick is a very sensative guy, and we were really surprised that he opened up to you so quickly. So he was most likely hurting really bad. But we will talk to us. Hopefully." Kevin was explaining all this. He was always the one that knew just what to say at the right time! I loved him for it (not like love-love! love like a brother!) "But," Joe started. "Uh-oh! There's a but?!" I was not looking forward to hearing this. "But, we know you really care about Nick," Joe continued again. "Actually love, but go on!" i smiled. Joe wasnt smiling. "Lindsey. You need to go see your mom. That is way more important." I knew he was right. "Will you atleast go with me? I cant do it alone." I was looking down at my shoes. Joe lifted my head up to look at him. "We will always be here for you." "We will never leave you." Kevin said with a gentle smile. So i took a deep breath and grabbed both of the boys' hands. "Let's do this." I said being as brave as i could. I found out very soon after, I could never be as brave as i needed to be...

CHAPTER 17

I walked into the hospital and immediately saw Sammie and Matt. They ran to me and gave me a hug. "Where have you been?! We were so worried!" Sammi said. "Thanks for getting her here guys." Matt was saying to Joe and Kevin. "It...wasnt us." Joe said. "Then who was it??" Matt asked. "Steven." I said shortly. "What..." Sammie asked. "I dont want to talk about it right now." i said looking down at the floor. "Okay, thats fine. But, Mom. She isnt..." she started crying. "What happened?!" i asked freaking out. "Lindz...Mom is in a coma. She has been the last couple hours. She is in intensive care right now. The doctors are doing everything they can." Matt said softly but trying to reassure me at the same time. I couldnt speak. Why does my life have to be so bad?! It's just one thing after another. So i continued to just stand there. "Okay..well were gonna go to see how mom is doing. We will be back in about 20 minutes or so." I just kept standing there. "We'll take care of her." Kevin said. "Thanks man." Matt said with a nod and got into the elevator with Sammi. The first thing that came into my mind was, Run! Thats what i always did. It just made me feel like i could get away from my problems if i just kept running. When i turned around to get out of there Joe and Kevin stopped me and got into my way. "MOVE!!!" i yelled! "Just let me leave! No one cares about me! My life sucks anyways! Just let me go!" i was sobbing now! I was using all my might to get past them, but they wouldnt move. "LINDSEY! Stop! You cant just run away from your problems! And we do care about you! Please just stop!" Joe was yelling trying to get me to listen. I fell to the ground. "Shhhh," Kevin said softly. "It's all going to be okay. We will always be here for you. Just calm down. Everything is going to be fine." They just sat on the ground with me, rocking me back and forth and stroking my hair trying to get me to stop crying. I felt like i would cry forever and never stop. Even though i knew i had people to care for me in my head, but in my heart i felt so alone. Like nothing would ever be okay again. My dad was gone, my mom was almost gone, Nick hated me, Steven hated me. My life was terrible. What did i do to deserve this?! I just gotta get away. I have to get out of here! Once again, my attemp to leave was stopped by Kevin and Joe. "Lindsey stop! Please. We will never leave you scared and alone. We promise." Joe was stroking my hair. "Thanks guys," i managed to choke out. "I would never be able to do this without you." I said with a small smile. "Common. Lets get off the floor and well take you home." Kevin said pulling me onto my feet. "Actually, can i go home with you guys...i dont wanna go home all by myself." I said looking at my feet. "Of course you can." Joe said with a smile lifing up my chin so i could look him in the eyes. We just smiled and walked out of the hospital and got into Kevin's car. Kevin drove, and joe sat in the back with me.  "You guys are amazing." I said as we pulled out of the hospital parking lot. They just smiled. As we continued to drive home a sudden thought popped into my head. I cant go home with them! What about Nick!

CHAPTER 18

"STOP THE CAR!" i yelled! Kevin slammed on the brakes. "What is it?! What happened?!" Kevin was freaking out! "Let me out." I said as i started to open the door and get out of the car. "Lindsey! What are you doing? Stay here!" Joe yelled as he grabbed my hand and pulled me back in. "What are you doing? I thought you were okay now." Kevin was so confused. "Guys!" i was so flustered. "Think about it! Nick is going to be at your house! Nick hates me!" Tears started to flow. Joe just hugged me. "Everything is going to be just fine. We will work everything out with Nick. I promise. Everything is going to be okay." "Please, just dont leave me alone with him." I pleaded. "Im serious. Dont try to trick me into being alone with him." I said giving them a stern look. "Okay, okay. We wont. Promise." Kevin said with a smile. "Are we ready then?" Joe asked a little cautiously. I took a deep breath. "Yah, i guess. Let's go." We pulled back onto the road and headed toward the Jonas's home. I wanted to see Nick so bad, but at the same time i was scared out of my mind!!! As long as Joe and Kevin kept their promise I figured everything would be okay. Well...they kept their promise,but everything was not okay.

CHAPTER 19

When we pulled into the Jonas's driveway, my heart was pounding harder then it ever had before. I was surprised Joe and Kevin couldnt hear it! When Kevin turned the car off and he and Joe got out of the car, i just kind of sat there. "Lindz...are you coming??" Joe asked. "Are you sure everything is going to be okay?" i asked with a worried look on my face. "We promise." Kevin said. "And you're not going to leave me?" I repeated again. "NO!" they yelled at the same time laughing as they pulled me out of the car. I was so nervous as we got closer and closer to the door. I felt like i couldnt breathe. We got to the door and i stopped. "Ohmigosh! We are not doing this again!" Joe said laughing as he pushed me through the door. I was laughing too, until i saw who was sitting at the kitchen table. Of course, it was Nick. I just froze. So did he. Joe and Kevin continued to push me into the house. I had no idea what to say to Nick. It felt like the longest 10 seconds of my life. It was completely awkward. Joe finally spoke up. "Hey...uh, look who we found. Ha...ha?" I knew he was trying to help, but it was just so nerve wracking to be standing there with Nick. "Whatever," Nick said as he started to get up and leave the room. "Nick wait!" i yelled. "Why do you want to talk to me? Why arent you with Steven?" I knew he was hurt but this was really aggrivating me. "Nick, stop it! Just listen to me! If you just let me explain!" He cut me off, "Explain what?! That you told me you loved me and then a few hours later i see you you macking on your ex boyfriend! That doesnt sound like it needs an explanation to me!" He was storming off and i was now crying. Joe came over to me and tried to get me to stop crying. But this all just made Kevin furious. "Nick! Stop! I know that you're upset, but that is no way to talk to her! You have no idea what happened or what she has been through tonight! So sit down and let her talk!" Nick saw that i was crying and realized that there was a whole lot more to the story. He walked over to me. "Look, I'm sorry. I will sit here, and you explain." Joe handed me a tissue and i started to explain...

CHAPTER 20

By the time that i got to the part where steven picked me up at the park, i was crying uncontrolably. "Lindz," Nick started. "No Nick, i need to explain. You deserve a full explanation." He sat back in his chair, allowing me to go on. After a few more mintues of explanation, i got to where Nick came and saw me and Steven at the hospital. "Nick, honestly. I really didnt want him to do anything! i wasnt giving him any signals. I love you Nick, not him. After what he did to me?! Theres no way, i just thought he was going to be my friend again. Honest." I was looking down at my hands. He came over and lifted my chin, "Look, i am the one that should be sorry. Its just that i very rarely tell girls that i love them. Because i never find them as special as you. So it just really hurt me knowing that you went back to that jerk...well i thought you were." I gave him a hugeeee hug! "You dont know how happy this makes me. But my mom..." i started crying all over again. "Hun, what happened?" Nick said worriedly. I never wanted to let go of him. But eventually i did, i had to tell him about Mom. "My mom....is in....a coma. Not....doing good....at all....she.....might....might....might...." "Might what sweetie? might what?" "die." i whispered as i sobbed again into Nick's chest. "Ohmigosh...i am so sorry. Oh honey, everything is going to be okay. We will always be here for you. I promise." He said while holding me tightly. "Please, please just never let me go. Never leave me. Please." I was just so upset. I felt like the only safe place was in Nick's arms. After i stopped sobbing after about 20 minutes and wiped my tears off my face. "You okay now?" He asked with a small smile. "As long as im with you." i smiled. "Well thank God you 2 got back together!" Kevin laughed! "Psh! i know!" joe exclaimed, "Cause we forgot to tell, Lindsey is going to be staying with us for a little while." Me and Nick just looked at eachother with a smile and a glimmer in our eyes. This is going to be awesome!

CHAPTER 21

I was having such an awesome time with the boys, and their family! Too bad it only lasted a few hours. I know this may sound bad, but the fact that i felt so happy and in place at the Jonas home, i forgot about all of my family problems, including my mom. It wasn't too much longer until i remembered her again. The whole Jonas family and I was watching a movie and then someone called. So Nick got up to answer. When he got up from my side, he just smiled at me, that beautiful smile of his. When he came back, that smile was gone. "Lindz," he started very slowly. "I, uh, i need to talk to you." I could tell he was very uneasy. "Nick, whats wrong?" I couldnt of possibly done something wrong to make him mad at me. I was starting to get worried. "It's your, its your mom." I jumped up. "WHATS WRONG WITH MY MOM?!" i was so frantic. He just needed to hurry up and tell me. I could take it. "Your mom is...." "What Nick? What? TELL ME!" i was shaking. "She's gone." he whispered. "What? No. She's not dead. She cant be dead." I was shaking my head furiously. "I am so sorry. The hospital just called. I am so so sorry." I collapsed onto the ground. I wasnt crying. I wasnt speaking. I just felt numb. My heart was pounding so fast. This cant be happening! No this cant be happening! Nick got down on the floor with me. "Lindz? Lindsey?" then Mrs. Jonas came over. "Honey, Lindsey say something." I didnt say one word. I just slowly got up, went into the guest bedroom, and sat on the bed. I didn't cry one bit. I just sat there. The next two days, i just sat there. Only getting up to go to the restroom. Multiple times, every member of the Jonas family came into the my room. More than anyone else Nick. I just continued to sit there. Mrs. Jonas would bring me food 3 times a day. I would only nibble on it when they left the room. After 2 days of the Jonasas attempting to get me to talk, they slowly stopped coming so many times, except for Nick. He started coming more. Finally he erupted. "Lindsey!!! Stop this! Just talk to me! This isnt healthy! You have to talk! Please just talk to me!" I knew he was concerned, but he did not have the right to speak to me like that. He just kept yelling at me! That was it! "NICK! STOP YELLING AT ME! IM SORRY THAT IM NOT DEALING WITH MY MOTHER'S DEATH THEY WAY YOU THINK I SHOULD, OKAY?" He just looked at me. "Ohmigosh! i am so happy that you said something!" He came over and hugged me. "But i yelled at you?" i was confused. "As long as you said something i dont care!" I started sobbing. He just help me tight. "Shhhh. I have you. I promise. I will never let you go. I promise. Just cry. It's okay. It's okay." He continued to just hold me for three hours. Even though i hated crying like that, i knew i needed to cry. I wanted to those three days i was silent, but i was afraid that i would never stop. And i felt like i never would then. I finally got some words out between my sobs. "Why...does....everything so terrible....have to happen to me?" i just didnt understand. The one thing that i did understand however, was that as long as Nick was with me, i would always have atleast one good thing in my life.

CHAPTER 22

Nick stayed with me in my room all night. As soon as i would stop crying, i just thought about Mom again and started crying all over again. I was so sick of crying! At about 12AM that night i remember, "OHMIGOSH! I totally forgot about Sammie and Matt! I am such a terrible sister! How could i forget my own brother and sister when they are going through just as much as i am!" I started crying...once again. "Lindz! It's okay! i will call them! its okay! Shhh. You are not a terrible person! They will understand!" "Please, dont leave me. Dont ever leave me." My words were muffled into his chest. "I will never leave you. I promise. Never." When i started to calm down more, Nick called Matt. "Hey, it's Nick. Lindsey is with me and has been taking the news pretty hard." "Thanks for calling man. It's been pretty hard over here too. We've had to plan the funeral and everything. It's been rough. Sammie has been crying so much. But she's been helping me a lot." Matt was on the other line. Nick had the phone on speaker so i could here everything. I spoke up. "Matt! I'm so sorry! I should've been there with you guys! i didnt know what to think, or what to say, or how to feel. I just want my mom back!" i started crying and Nick grabbed me once again. "Lindsey!" Matt started saying. "We are coming over. Be there in a few minutes!" Literally they were there sooner then i could've believed! I ran outside to meet them in the driveway. We all hugged and started crying together. "common'. Let's go inside." matt said strongly. We went inside and talked. They explained everything to me. How Mom died, when the funeral was. Everything. The funeral was gong to be the next day. Of course i had to go, but i was scared. I didn't want to see Mom lying in a coffin. But i couldn't not go! When Matt and Sammie left, i still sat in the living room with Nick, Joe, and Kevin. "Guys," i said quietly. "Yah, Lindz?" Joe said. "Will you go with me to the funeral?" "Of course we will, babe!" Nick said as he came over and sat on the couch with me. "I told you i would never leave you. And i never will." He said holding my hand. I just looked up at him, and gave him a very small smile as a silent tear rolled down my cheek. I could've never imagined how hard the next day was going to be...

CHAPTER 23

I tried to sleep that night, but i was way to scared, nervous, and a million other feelings. Nick slept in my room with me though. I told him he didnt have to sleep on the lumpy couch in there, but he said,"i promised you i would never leave you. and i'm keeping that promise." I just hugged him. "You are the most amazing person i have ever met!" i said right as he kissed me. I just smiled at him. "I love you." He said softly. "I love you too." I whispered back. So i got into bed and we turned off the lights. All i could think about as i was laying there was about my mom, and about what was going to happen the next day. Was i brave enough to see my mom? Was i brave enough to face my family? Was i brave enough to actually go to the funeral and not run away? I had no idea if i was brave enough to do all those things. But i knew that having Nick, Kevin, and Joe there with me would definitely help. I was able to doze for a few hours that night, enough to keep me awake the next day. It was 8 o'clock when i woke up to Nick playing with my hair. "Hey." he said as i opened my eyes. "Hey back" i said. "Are you ready for today?" he asked. "I guess i have to be dont i?" i said as i got out of bed. "I know, it's going to be hard, but we will be there with you the whole time." He said gently as he grabbed my hand and pulled me into a kiss. "You always know what to say...well i guess do to make me feel better." I said sweetly. "Well of course i do!" he laughed. "Okay, okay. Go on out! i need to get dressed." I said still laughing at his cockyness. "Fine...but i'll miss you!" he said with a grin. "It's only going to 5 minutes!" i joked at i shut the door. When i shut the door, the reality of my life came crashing back down on me. Today is my mother's funeral. I was so scared. I ended up picking out a black dress that goes about knee-high with thick shoulder straps. I pulled out my black stilletos from my closet. As i was getting ready to change, i broke down, crying into my dress. "Why does my life have to be so terrible?!" i yelled. "First my dad left, then Steven, now i will never see my mom again! I hate my life. I just want it all to end!" Nick came running in. "Oh no, Lindz. Shhh...its okay." He said as he tried to comfort me. "NO! No it's not okay Nick! I lost my mom, FOREVER! i will never see her ever again! That's not okay!" I know now that i should never have been so mean to him, he was only trying to help...but i couldnt help it. I was just so upset and didnt know what to do! "I'm so sorry." i said to him as i looked down at the floor. "It's okay. You deserve to be angry. You deserve to be upset. I understand." He grabbed me and started to pull me into a kiss. "No, I'm sorry. I love you, but not right now. It's not exactly the right time." I said softly. "Oh...of course! What was i thinking?! I'm so sorry!" i knew he felt bad. "No, its fine. I swear. I'm gonna get dressed now though really fast, then you can come back in." I told him. "Okay," he said as he walked out the door. I got dressed, did my hair and makeup, put on my shoes, then it was time to leave...

CHAPTER 24

Kevin drove us to the funeral. I was so nervous and the boys could definitely tell. My face was so white and i was shaking. Joe was in the passenger seat in the front of the car and Nick was of course with me in the back. He held my hand the whole drive. I knew he felt bad, but there was nothing he could do to make me feel better. I was getting ready to go to my mother's funeral. I started crying. Nick leaned over and wiped my tear from my face. "Lindz, I'm, we are all here for you no matter what." "I know." I managed to get out. I didnt want to break down. He knew that i was in no condition to talk, so he just continued to hold my hand, and comfort me. We finally pulled up to the church. Kevin parked. Turned of the car. I just sat there. I felt numb all over my body. "Common' Lindz. We gotta get in there." I could feel myself getting out of the car, but i was in such a daze, I couldn't think straight. I was getting ready to walk into my mommy's funeral. The one that taught me how to paint my nails, who bought me my first bra, who would just let me cry when a boy broke my heart. Now she was gone. I would never see her ever again. My heart was broken. I felt like even though I did have Nick, and Kevin and Joe, I had no point in living anymore. I walked into the church with the 3 guys, and walked up to the front with Sammie and Matt. We hugged, then sat down. I didn't say one word. Kevin, Joe, and Nick to the right of me. Nick was of course right by me. I was so out of it, i really didnt hear much that the pastor said. I just wanted to get this over with. When it was time for us to go up and see her, thats when all heck broke loose...

CHAPTER 25

When they gave the option to go up and see her...I couldn't move. Nick grabbed my hand and helped me up. When i looked down at my mom, laying there with no expression on her face, i just fell to the ground. "Mommy! No! Please no! This isn't happening!" Sammie and Matt sat down on the floor with me. We just sat there together, crying. Matt, being the oldest, and the bravest, spoke up. "Guys, we can do this. We'll get through this together." Finally we got up and went back to our seats. Joe, Nick, and Kevin just sat there looking so upset and feeling so bad for us. After the funeral was over, I rode with Sammie and Matt to the burial, Kevin, Joe and Nick followed. As i sat there watching my Mommy's coffin being lowered into the ground, i saw my whole life, just going down with her. Yeah...i had Nick, Joe and Kevin. And obviously my brother and sister. But i practically had no parents any more. All of my dreams went down in the grave with my mom, and it was going to a take a long time to try to conquer those dreams again. I felt like my life had no worth anymore. For the next week, i sat in my room, staring out the window. I didn't speak. I didn't eat. I didn't move. All i did was stare out that window and sleep. I was miserable up there. Not because i was hungry, or lonely. But because i was just so depressed, my life felt like it wasnt even worth living anymore. Someone needed to talk some sense into me, and soon. And thankfully, a very important person did.

CHAPTER 26

Nick came into my room that next thursday, just as he did every day that whole week before. But this day was different. "Lindsey, common babe. Please, you have to talk to me! You are not very healthy any more, you've barely eaten all week. You need to go to a doctor. But most importantly, you need to speak to me!" I turned around to look at him, as a tear rolled down my cheek. "I'm sorry." I said quietly. "I just dont know what to do with myself! I feel so numb all over my body." "You talked to me!!!" Nick yelped as he ran to hug me. "Lindz, i can feel your ribs!!! We need to get you to the hospital right now!!" "Fine." I said as he pulled me out of the room. When we arrived to the hospital, they immediately put me in a room. A doctor came in and told me that i had lost a lot of nutrients and needed to be put on a feeding tube for the night. "So does that mean i have to stay the night here?" I asked worriedly. "I'm sorry. But to get you healthy, you got to," the doctor said sympathetically. She patted me on the shoulder and walked out of the room. "Guys?" i started. "Yah Lindz?" Nick jumped up. "I dont wanna stay here. I hate hospitals. Too many bad memories." i said as i looked down. "I know, i know its hard Lindz, but we have to get  you healthy so you can hurry up and leave here." Nick said gently as he grabbed my hand. "I dont know why you still like me," I said as i looked at him. "I look terrible! I my hair hasn't been brushed in days! I have a feeding tube down my throat. No make-up on," i was going to go on but Nick cut me off. "You're right. I dont like you. I love you Lindsey! And i don't care about your hair, or your makeup or anything like that! All i care about is you, and that you are safe!" He squeezed my hand. "I love you too. And thank you...i dont know what i would do without you!" I said as i rubbed his arm. "It's no problem. Just know that i will never leave you. I swear." Little did i know then, that his promise, wasn't going to be kept for long...

CHAPTER 27

The guys stayed with me and kept me occupied. Joe was cracking jokes as usual, Kevin was being the helpful, sweet guy that he is. And Nick sat with me holding my hand the whole time. It was about 1:30AM and they all needed to go home. But Nick refused. "I promised Lindsey that I wouldnt leave her! I'm going to keep my promise." "Fine, fine." Kevin said with a smile. "Aw..." Joe said cutely. "Nick is in lovee!" "So what if i am?" Nick said as he went over to Joe trying to act all tough, and not die laughing. "Alright guys, finish this at home." Kevin said laughing. "Lindsey needs to get some sleep so she can come home tomorrow." Kevin and Joe came over to me and gave me big hugs then walked out the door. "You didn't have to stay." I was saying to Nick as he walked back over to me. "Of course I did!" he said like leaving wasnt an option at all. "You're amazing." I said as i looked into his amazing eyes. "I think you're the one that is amazing. I love you." He said back as he leaned in for a kiss. "Uh, Nick?" i said kind of laughing. "What? What's wrong?" He was so confused. "Well i kind of have a feeding tube down my throat, i dont think kissing is going to work out too well." I started to laugh. "Oh...my bad!" he laughed. Then i had like a hugee yawn. "Aw, im sorry! You need to get to bed! You're probable exausted!" He said. "Okay, sleep sounds good right now." I said smiling at him. As Nick started to sit down in the chair beside my bed I said, "There is room up here." "Are you sure?" he asked. "I want you to be comfortable." "Of course I'm sure! Get up here!" I laughed. He sat in bed with me. "You must be tired too," I said to him. "Yah, a little. But I'm okay. I'll just stay up to make sure you are okay through the night." he said. "You are so protective! I'll be fine! I promise!" I grabbed his hand. "Okayy." He said uneasily as he leaned back on the bed. "As long as your here with me, i will always be okay." I said with a smile. "I love you so much." Nick said to me. "I love you too babe." He said. He started to lean in toward me, then stopped. "JEEZE! I wish you didn't have that tube!" I started laughing. "I'm getting it out in the morning!" "Fine!" He said. Within the next few minutes i was dead asleep. A few hours later, i woke up to see Nick still sound asleep. He was the most beautiful guy in the world, and i was lucky enough to have him. I wish i would've known then, that i wouldnt have him for very long...

CHAPTER 28

I was woken up in the morning by the nurse who was going to take my feeding tube out. I was so happy to have that thing out of my throat! So was Nick! ;) He was standing behind the nurse the whole time she was taking it out, winking at me! I was trying so hard not to laugh! When the nurse finally left my room, Nick came right over to my bed. "You are so impatient!" i joked with him. "Well can you really blame me? I couldn't kiss my amazing girlfriend!" He said as he leaned in and kissed me. "Okay, i did miss that!" I said smiling! "So when do i get out of this terrible place?" I asked Nick just as Joe and Kevin walked in. "I just talked to the doctor outside and they said you can leave in about a half  hour or so." Kevin jumped in and said. "THANK GOD!" I wanted out of that hospital so bad! Thankfully I had the guys to get my keep my mind off my mom. Right as the nurse came in to talk to me Sammie and Matt came in. "Lindz! We are so sorry we are just now getting here!" Sammie was freaking out! "Sam, it's fine! I swear! I had the guys to keep me company." I said smiling looking at the 3 handsome men standing beside my bed. "Well I'm glad that they took care of you sis!" Matt chimed in. "We really are sorry that we are so late. But we have a good reason." He added. Sammie started looking a little worried. "What is it Sam?" I asked a little confused. "Well, Aunt Bethany came to see us last night. And she made us an offer." She was wouldn't look at me. "What was the offer?!" I was getting concerned. They both looked down. "GUYS!! What is the offer?!?!" I was getting mad. If someone wouldn't tell me what was going on, I was going to freak out! "She said that we could come with her to Texas and live with her." Matt said quietly. "And?" I asked impatiently. "We are thinking we will probably do it." Sammie muttered. "No. No. No. NO WAY! Are you seriously saying what i think you are? You want me to move away from everyone that I have grown up with here in California, including Nick, Joe, Kevin, and their whole family?! After we just lost our mother?!?! When i need them all the most?! You honestly must be insane!" I was totally freaking out! Matt jumped in before i could go on. "Lindz, Sis please calm down. We think we might have something to make you happy."

CHAPTER 29

"Fine! What?" I was so mad! "Well, we were going to talk to Mr. and Mrs. Jonas first, but I guess we can just tell you our idea now." Sammie started. Matt cut in, "We were going to see if you could stay here." My face went from furious, to confused, to OMJ ARE YOU KIDDING ME! Nick leaned over towards me and said, "Well I think she likes that idea!" We all started laughing. "But don't get your hopes up too high right now, we still haven't talked to their parents." Matt said being the responsible one. "Oh! They won't care!" Kevin said happily! "No way! They are cool! They will let you!" Joe yelled excitedly! Nick looked at me and said softly, "Just think, you and me will be able to be together all of the time!" I grabbed his hand and gave him a wink. Just as Sammie and Matt were getting ready to go find Mr. and Mrs. Jonas, they walked through the door. "MOM! DAD!" Nick jumped up and  yelled. "NICK!" Mr. Jonas yelled back. We all started giggling. Sammie and Matt took over explaining all of the details about what we wanted to happen. "Of course Lindsey can stay with us!" Mrs. Jonas said happily! "Yeah! We love her like one of our own!" Mr. Jonas chimed in. Me, Joe, Kevin, and Nick were waiting in the other room, all sneeking to listen of course! When we heard that we all started screaming and laughing! Nick ran over and gave me a big hug and picked me up! "This is going to be amazing babe!" He said right before he leaned in for a kiss. Right then, their parents walked in. "Now that is something we are going to have to deal with." said Mrs. Jonas looking a little concerned. "Mom! It's fine! They are going to be okay! Kissing isnt terrible!" Kevin said in a hurry! "Yah Mom!" Joe whined! "I want Lindsey to stay with us! We will keep an eye on them all the time!" "Alright then." Mrs. Jonas said with a smile. "You two better behave yourselves!" "Oh...we will!" Nick said with a smile.

CHAPTER 30

Sammie and Matt left at about 10 o'clock that night. They were leaving for my Aunt's house the next day and I was totally bummed! I was trying my hardest not to cry. "Sis!" Matt rushed over and pulled me into a hug. "Don't cry! I know that we will miss eachother, but we will talk on the phone every night! And we will fly home about every month to come see you!" I started crying. "I'm just going to miss you guys so much! I already miss Mom, I don't want to miss you guys too!" Sammie came over and joined in on the hug. "Lindz! We love you! And I will miss you like crazy! But this is for the best! You are going to have an amazing time staying with the Jonas's! They will take care of you!" "I love you guys so much!" I said as we let go of eachother. "We love you too Sis! And we will call every night to check in!" "You better!" I said drying up my tears. When they walked out and shut the door, I ran into Nick's arms. "It's okay, babe! I know you will miss them, but it'll all be okay." I looked up into his eyes, and knew that he was right. Everything was going to be okay. I would miss my brother and sister like crazy, but I was going to be able to spend all my time with this amazing family! Me and the boys all fell asleep watching Bruce Almighty that night. I felt so safe with them, and i absolutely adored that feeling! I was so lucky! Soon enough though, my luck was going to run out!

CHAPTER 31

I woke in the morning to Nick and Joe whispering. I was fell asleep on Nick's chest, so he couldn't exactly get up. Even though I was awake, I kept my eyes closed so I could here what they were saying. "Isn't she beautiful?" Nick whispered. "Yupp, sure is." Joe replied back. "She just looks so peaceful. But i need to get up. Mabye if i move really slowly it won't stir her." But i didn't want him to get up. So when he started moving, so did I. "Oh crap!" I heard him say. "Just stay there. I'm sure she'll wake up soon." Joe reasured him. "She'll wake up soon enough. Brandi is coming in a few hours." Nick said softly. "What? Brandi is coming? Don't you think that is going to be a little awkward for Lindsey?" Joe said in shock. "I know. I know, but what was I supposed to tell Brandi. She hasn't been in LA since she moved to Ohio. And she said she wanted to see everyone." Nick said kind of concerned. I had had enough though. It was time for me to wake up. I opened my eyes and acted all clueless. "Hey guys!" I yawned. "Hey babe!" Nick said as he kissed my forehead. "Hey Lindz!" Joe chimed in. "Whatcha guys talking about?" I wanted Nick to tell me about this Brandi girl. "Oh, nothing really." Nick said. "Nick!" Joe said giving him a look. "Okay I'm sorry. I was telling Joe about how one of my ex-girlfriends is coming into town today." Nick said guiltily. "Oh." I said kind of oddly. "Look Lindz, i swear!" Nick said fastly. "I dated her like a year before i met you, and it didn't work out well at all. And i love you! Not her. Don't be mad." "I'm not mad." I said with a smile. "I love you too! And i trust you. So it's okayy." I leaned over and kissed him. "I sure do love when you're not mad at me!" He said grinning. He kissed me back. "Guys!" Joe yelled. "Quit macking in front of me! Jeeze!" We all started laughing. "Okayy. Well I guess I better go shower and get ready." Brandi got there a few hours later, and there was nothing that i could do to be ready for what happened after she arrived...

CHAPTER 32

Me, Nick, Joe, and Kevin were sitting in the living room when the doorbell rang. We all just kind of sat there. Nick looked at me, half smiled and grabbed my hand. Joe was the brave one obviously because he was the one that got up to answer the door. He took a deep breath, then we heard, "OHMIGOSH! Joe!" She leaped in a gave Joe a huge hug. "Hey Brandi!" Joe said trying to act excited. Then the next thing, the very next thing that came out of her mouth was, "Where's Ni..." Then she turned and saw us sitting on the couch holding hands. She gave me a look then ran over and gave Nick a hugeeee hug! "Ohmigosh! I have missed you so much!" She kept touching his arm, and it was starting to make me mad. It was time for me to come in. "Uh, hi!" I said trying to smile as I stood up by Nick. "Oh Nicky! Who is your friend?" She was so fake! "Actually, she is more than a friend, she is my girlfriend, Lindsey." He said as he turned and smiled at me as he grabbed my hand. "Oh." She said. I knew she was mad, but I didn't care! I loved Nick way too much to let this brat come in and take him from me. It was a total awkward silence. Finally Joe spoke up. "So Brandi, let's go find our parents. I'm sure they'll want to see you." "Okay!" She said putting her fake smile back on! Once they walked out of the room I just turned and looked at Nick. "What? She's not that bad." He said kind of uneasy. I just looked at him like what?. "Okay, she's terrible!" He said as we started to laugh. "Yeah! She is." I said. Nick grabbed both of my hands and looked me square in the eye. "Look babe, please don't get jealous of her. She is a HUGE flirt, and I have absolutely no feelings for her at all anymore! And, not to mention, I am crazy in love with this amazing girl." He said with a smile. "Oh, who is that? Oh me?!" We started laughing. He leaned in a gave me a kiss and then pulled me into a hug. "I love you Nicholas." I said as he grabbed my hand again. "I love you too, Lindz." He said. "Well, we better go visit. And please be nice, she's only in town for a few days." "Fine. I promise." I said stubbornly. But I soon found out, that it was harder than i could've imagined to be nice to that girl!..

CHAPTER 33

We walked out on the back patio to meet up with Kevin, Joe, Frankie, and Mr. & Mrs. Jonas. Oops, didn't mean to forget Brandi...ugh! We walked out their and she ran right up to us. "Oh Nicky! I was just talking about that one time when your parents caught us kissing on the couch! Remember that?! How funny was that!" I wanted to just smack her! "Oh yah, that was uh, pretty funny." He looked at Kevin and Joe to help. Thankfully Kevin was quick thinking. "Hey guys! Let's run to the ice cream shop! To catch up and stuff." "Yeah! Let's go!" Joe and Frankie yelled at the same time. We started laughing. "Oh Nick, I'm gonna run to the ladies room real fast." I said. "Alright, I'll wait with you." He said as he started walking towards me. "I can go to the bathroom by myself (laughing)." "Alright. We'll wait in the car!" So I ran into the house really quick. When i came out Brandi was standing there waiting for me. "Oh, hi!" I said trying to be nice. "Cut the act." She said as she shoved me against the wall. "Nick may think that he loves you, but he really loves me! Just wait! He doesn't love you! Who would ever love you!" "You know what! BACK OFF! I don't care what you think or say! Nick cares about me! And you're just a jerk! So back up off me, and stay away from my man!" I grabbed my purse and stormed out of the house. The nerve that that girl had to talk to me like that! This was not going to be a very good time the next few days...

CHAPTER 34

Brandi was such a jerk, and very sneaky about it. Whenever she had the chance she would run into me, or shoot me a dirty look. I was getting real sick of this girl! And it wasn't just the bad attitude she had towards me, it was how much she constantly had to flirt with Nick!!!! I just had to reassure myself over and over again. Nick loves. Right? I'm acting ridiculous! Of course he loves me. But what about Brandi? Okay Lindsey stop this! I had these thoughts more than you can imagine! But I kept telling myself this, until that day. That day that broke my heart into a billion pieces.

PART 2

I had to run over to Meg's house. She was having some drama with her boyfriend. Of course Lexi was there too. (sorry i havent mentioned them in a while) Well after talking with them for a little while, I remembered that Nick and Brandi were home. Alone. Uh-oh! I mean, I trusted Nick, but not her! How stupid am I?! Joe and Kevin went over to hang out with Frankie for a little bit, then I stupidly left them alone!! I have to get home! Thank God Meg was done venting. I jumped up really fast. "Sorry guys! I gotta go!" "What's wrong?!" they both yelled. "I can't explain right now! I have to get home!" I was yelling at them as i ran out the door. "We're coming with you!" Lexi shouted as they followed me. I was a good 100 yards ahead of them. I ran to my house and opened the door to find my worst nightmare! Nick and Brandi kissng!!!! "YOU JERK! HOW COULD YOU?!" I screamed as i started to cry! I was so mad...but so hurt at the same time! "Lindsey please! Let me explain!" Nick jumped up and starting walking towards me. "Explain what Nick?! That you are a cheater?! Is that it? Or do you just not care about me at all!" "No, Lindz, please! Just listen to me. Just talk to me." He tried to grab my hand. "Get away from me! I don't want to hear what you have to say! I knew Brandi was trouble since I heard you and Joe talking about it when I was sleeping!" "Please just listen to me." By the time he got out his sentence I was out of the door! By the time the screaming started, Meg and Lexi were there to hear everything. I ran out of the door crying. I ran back to Meg's house and locked myself in the bathroom. I was crying hysterically. "Lindsey please! Let us in!" Lexi was yelling through the door. "No! No one loves me! My life is terrible! I hate my life! No one cares about me!" I was so upset. I was just sitting on the bathroom floor bawling. Finally the girls found a way to pick the lock on the door and came in. The just sat on the floor with me and rocked me back and forth letting me cry. "It's alright girl. We love you. We will always love you. Shhh. It's okay. You don't need a jerk like that in your life. Shhh...it's all okay." But they were wrong. It wasn't okay. Nothing was. My mom was dead, my brother and sister were gone, and the love of my life just cheated on me! I believed that nothing would ever be okay, ever again!

CHAPTER 35

After the girls got me settled down, we went to go take a walk. I just had to get my mind off of everything! But of course, that wasn't going to happen. I didn't want to walk by the Jonas house, but of course, there was no other way that we could get to the park. Right as we walked by Joe and Kevin came running out of the house. "Lindsey! Lindsey!" I heard Kevin yell. I kept walking. I did NOT wanna talk about everything right now. "Lindsey stop! Please! We just wanna talk to you!" Joe was yelling now. So i stopped and just stood there. "You're actually gonna talk to us?" Joe asked trying to lighten up the mood. "Ya. I am." I said flatly. I was not wanting to listen to them. "Look Lindz, we know that you are incredibly hurt. And we don't blame you at all. We also know that that looked really bad on Nick's part, but it was Brandi that did it. He was trying to get her off of him." Kevin explained to me. "Mhm." I said. "Look Lindsey, remember when we came and helped you at the hospital. And believed you when Steven tried to make a move on you?" Joe asked me. "Ya. I remember." I said thinking about it. "We also said that we can tell when people are lying or telling the truth. And we really can tell that he isn't lying. We walked in on him totally laying into Brandi yelling at her and telling her how much she ruined everything." Kevin said. I just kind of stood there looking at Meg and Lexi seeing what they thought. "We also heard him say something else." Joe said a little weird. "What?" I asked. "We heard him yelling at Brandi, saying that he has never loved anyone like he loves you. And that if she ruined you two's relationship, it would ruin his whole life." Joe said softly. I started to cry. Kevin and Joe wrapped me up in a hug. "Guys, thank you so much!" I said to them. "It's no problem girl, but...why are you crying?" Joe asked me confused. "It's just a huge relief. I mean, when my Dad left, I had you guys." Meg and Lexi joined in on the hug. I continued. "And when mom died, I had you guys. But the thought of not having Nick in my life anymore, it just crushed me!" "You don't have to worry about that anymore." I heard someone say from outside of the huge hug.

CHAPTER 36

I pushed my way out of the hug to see Nick standing there. Ohmigosh! I thought. He must have heard everything i just said! I just kind of stood there and looked at him. I didn't know what to do! Or what to say! We both just stood there and looked at eachother. Finally after a few minutes Joe yelled, "Are you gonna kiss him or what?!" We all started laughing. I ran into Nick's arms and burried my face in his chest. I started crying. "Don't cry babe." Nick said as he wiped the tears from my face. "I'm sorry." I started. "It's just I'm so happy that I have you again. I just felt so alone when my mom died, but you were always there." "Don't be sorry. I should be the one saying sorry. You totally walked in at the worst moment. And I pushed her off of me and..." I cut him off with a kiss. We kissed for like 5 minutes straight. "Look Nick, Kev and Joe told me everything. I know you're not a bad guy. And i know that Brandi is a complete jerk! But you can't blame me for freaking out either." I said messing with him. "I know! I know! I don't blame you at all!" He started freaking out. "Nick! I'm just messing with you." I just looked at him and smiled. "I love you Nicholas! I love you so much!" "I love you too Lindsey!" He pulled me into a kiss. "You're so amazing!" Nick said softly as he brushed my hair out of my face. " Right back at ya babe!" We just smiled at eachother. "Well, do you wanna do something tonight? Just you and me?" "Of course I do!" I just grinned. He started to lean in to kiss me again and Joe shouted, "Not again!" We all started laughing." "Fine. Fine. We can save that for tonight!" He winked at me and I just smiled as i hugged him again! I felt so warm and safe in his strong arms. I was so happy with this amazingly awesome guy in my life! And even luckier that Brandi was out of both of our lives! At least that's what i thought...

CHAPTER 37

Nick wouldn't tell me where we were going for our date that night...and it was driving me totally crazy! But at the same time...I was totally excited to see what he had planned. Every time I would sneak and try to hear what he was telling Joe and Kevin he would catch me. "Lindz! Be patient!" He finally laughed. "I'm sorry! I'm just so anxious!" "Well that will make the surprise a billion times better for you!" He said grabbing my hand. "Fine. I'll just wait...but can you atleast tell me what kind of outfit I need to wear?" I laughed. "Well..." He looked at Joe and Kev for advice. "We're all over this!" Kevin said. "Common' Joe! Let's go help her!" "SWEET!" Joe yelped as he grabbed my arm and pulled me up the stairs. So the guys told me that I needed two outfits. A dressier one, and then a kind of casual one. The mystery of what Nicholas was planning was driving me crazy!!! "Can you just give me a little hint?" I begged the two! "Nope! Our mouths our shut!" Joe said with a sparkle in his eye. "What I will tell you though," Kevin started. "Is that you're gonna absolutely love it!" I smiled. "Okay. Okay. But i still have no idea what to wear!" I was freaking out! "We have this all under control!" Kevin said as he pulled a box out from under the bed. "What the heck?!" I was so confused! I gasped as he opened it! The most beautiful dress! (go here to see it!

http://img444.imageshack.us/img444/1667/455gf5.png) (I luckily had a perfect pair of heels to match!) I about passed out! "Ohmigosh! This must be a fancy date!" "The first half is!" Joe said with a smile. "Well then what do I wear the second half??" I was so confused! "Well you decide! We can tell you right now that it's casual, but you still need to show your style." Kevin said. "Guys! What is going on?!" I was so flustered! "You will see! But hurry up and pick out your outfit because our hair/make-up stylist will be here in ten minutes!" Joe put his hands to his ears quickly! Just in time because I started screaming! "I am SOOO excited!" I ended up picking out a light denim mini-skirt. A long peach tank-top, a white half-sweater button up, and peach flats. I asked the boys if my outfit would work. "It's perfect!" Very soon after the make-up/hair stylist got there! She made me look like a princess! I put on my dress just in time. Because Nick was knocking on the door.

CHAPTER 38

I don't know why I was so nervous about this date...but I totally was! My heart was beating hard, and I had crazy butterflies in my stomach. Thank God Meghan and Lexi were there with me, they totally knew how I was feeling. "Lindz! Just breathe! Why are you so nervous?" Lexi was asking me. "I DONT KNOW! I have no idea what's wrong with me!" I was seriously stressing. "Well, too late now..." Meghan was pushing me up the stairs. They wanted me to have a "princess" entrance. As soon as I got up the stairs I heard Meg. "Hey Nick! Lindsey is right up stairs. Lindsey! Come down, Nick is here!" I took a deep breath and walked down the stairs. Nick didn't say anything, he just stood there and smiled. "Uh, hey." I said a little nervously. He just kept smiling. "Uh, Nick?" I said as I waved my hand in front of his face. "I am so sorry! You just look so beautiful! And I just realize how lucky I really am to have an amazing girl like you!" He leaned in and started kissing me. "Hey now! Hey now!" Lexi yelled. I just blushed. "Get out of here you crazy kids!" Meg joked. Nick grabbed my hand and we walked out the door. "OHMIGOSH!" I gasped as I saw the white stretch limo in front of the house! "You like?" He asked wiggling his eyebrows at me. "Of course I like!" He opened the door for me and helped me in the limo. What a gentleman. I thought. What an absolute, perfect gentleman. We didn't ride in the car very long, 20 minutes maybe. I felt so special. Not just because everyone else on the road stopped to watch us, but because I was so blessed with this amazing guy! The limo stopped and Nick got out. He came around and helped me out of the limo. He grabbed my hand as we walked into about the nicest restaurant EVER! I was absolutely stunned! We walked in and there was a path of roses leading to our table. We went and sat down. There were roses and a box sitting there. I was SO curious, but decided to wait for Nick to say something. The waiter came by and asked us what we wanted to drink (we both got Spring Water with lemon). Then we just sat there and looked at eachother smiling. "Nick, this is amazing! I do not deserve something this fancy!" "Of course you do! You are the greatest girl I have ever met and you deserve to be treated like the princess you are!" He layed his hands on the table, obviously wanting me to grab them. So of course I grabbed his hands. "So, you obviously see the box sitting here on the table. And I am very proud of you for not being nosey and asking." I raised my eyebrow at him! "You know I'm kidding!" I just laughed. "Well anyways...there is something that I really want to give you. He let go of one of my hands and grabbed the box. When he opened it, I gasped!

CHAPTER 39

He opened up the box, and there were two rings. Two DIAMOND rings!!!! "Nick! This is...this is..." I was absolutely speechless! "Look Lindsey, I know that things didn't go well the last day or so, but I love you so much! And I always want us to be together! So these are promise rings, to eachother. I will promise you that I want us to stay together forever." Nick just smiled as he continued holding my hand. I started to cry. "What? Did I do something wrong?" "No, No! You did everything perfect! I love you so much Nicholas! And I lovee this idea! I want to be with you forever too!" I was still crying. "If you're so happy, then, then why are you crying?" He was so confused. "I'm crying because, because so many reasons. I'm crying because I'm happy. I'm happy that I have you in my life! And then I'm crying because I just wish that my mom could be here with me, to be happy for us." I started crying harder. I tried to stop. "And I'm sorry! I feel like I'm ruining everything! But I really am happy Nick! I am so happy. I know you understand about my mom." I really was trying not to cry. Nick came around to my side of the table. We stood up and he just held me. "I know Lindz. I know. But just know that your Mom is always with you. In here." He said putting my hand on my heart. "And she's always watching you too. She will always be with you. And just think, one day, you will be with her again." I stopped crying. "You are the most amazing thing that could ever happen to me!" I gave him a quick kiss. He helped me back into my chair. We took the rings out of the box. I put Nick's ring on him, and he put mine on me. It was the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen, well next to Nick of course! ;) We ate our meal and contiued to talk. About everything really! I loved it though. After about an hour and a half of being at the restaurant Nick said to me. "Okay, well this is the first part of the date. Are you ready for the second part?" "Ohmigosh! I totally forgot there was a second part! But heck yes I'm ready!" I said smiling. Well common' then! Let's get out of here!" He said smiling as he grabbed my hand. We ran out of the restaurant and jumped into the limo. But Nick got in the front seat. "What are you doing?" I asked confused. "Well, you need to change remember?" "I gotcha!" I said as i jumped in the back of the limo. I got changed just in time, because we had arrived at the second part of the date!

CHAPTER 40

I jumped right on out of the limo and didn't even wait for Nick to open the door. I was so excited! What is this?! I thought. I just saw a small building. I had such a confused look on my face, and Nick definitely saw it! "Don't worry. Don't worry! It gets so much better!" "Okayy..." I said smiling at him. I started to walk in. "WAIT!" Nick yelled after me. "What?!" I yelled back jokingly. "You can't see! It's a surprise!" So he ran up behind me, put a blind fold on me, and grabbed my hand. "Just let me lead the way," he said quietly into my ear. "Kay! But you better not run me into anything!" We started laughing. We got in and walked for a minute, then stopped. We just stood there! "Nick! Can I take this blind fold off? I wanna see the surprise!" All of a sudden he untied my blindfold from the back and it fell off. "Oh....my....gosh!!!!!!!!!!" There in front of me was a recording studio! There was a sign on the door that said RESERVED FOR NICK JONAS AND LINDSEY ----- And inside of this recording studio, my guitar was sitting there, with rose petals all over the ground! I just turned around and looked at him with my mouth wide open! "What's that look for?" He joked with me. "Are we seriously going to record a song together Nick?" "Heck yes we are! But..." He said with a devious little smile. "Oh no!" I said. "No no no! It's not a bad but! It's a rly good one! We are going to record two songs! And one of them will be YOURS!" I don't think my mouth could fall open any more! "Wait, wait, wait!" I said. "How do you know i write songs? And how did you find my songs?" I started walking towards him. "Well...your sister ratted you out!" "AHH! Well...she is a pretty amazing sister!" I ran into his arms and hugged him! "Well which songs are we gonna record?" I asked him. "Actually, first you are going to record by yourself." "What? Nick, I can't do that!" "Yes you can! You are an amazing singer!" He said as he came over and grabbed my hands. "You sure?" I asked softly. "Of course I am! But, now the only thing is, which song are you gonna sing?" "I know the perfect one." I said smiling.

CHAPTER 41

"Which one is it?" Nick asked curiously. "It's a new one...thats not  in my song book! cough,cough." i laughed as i walked into the recording studio. As i sat down on the stool and picked up my guitar I said with a smile,"I wrote this one special." as i looked Nick in his beautiful brown eyes.

(VERSE 1)

My world, was falling apart.

It felt like things, would never get better.

it seemed that no one, understood me.

my heart was crushed, it felt so empty.

(CHORUS)

But then he, came into my life.

When my whole world was dark,

he showed me light.

I was always, so hurt and down.

But when he holds me tight,

it turns everything around.

I thought for all the good times,

I'd have to wait.

But then that boy, showed me faith.

(VERSE 2)

he opened my eyes.

it was so new to me.

i could see the sunshine,

and hear the birds sing.

but still the sadness,

tries coming back.

then he holds my chin up,

and i see what i have!

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)

nothing in this world,

can make me feel like i do.

'cause when he's with me,

my life feels so brand new.

(CHORUS)

As i sang my song, I looked straight at Nick. He made me so happy! He made my life feel like it had worth! When i finished my song, i set my guitar down, and they flipped off the recording switch. I walked out nervously. I had no idea what people were going to think of my song, and especially what Nick thought about it. I walked up to him and he grabbed me in his arms and kissed me. We kissed for a good 6 minutes or so. "So you like it?" I asked him as we pulled away a little. "Are you kidding me?!" He asked. "I love it! That is such a great song Lindz!" "I'm glad you like it...cause obviously it's about you. And I just wanted it to show you how much I love you and how much of an effect you have had on my life." I said with a small smile on my face. "Babe, that's the most amazing thing anyone has ever done for me! I love you so much, and I am so happy that we were able to find eachother." I just hugged him. Just being in his arms, made me happier than anyone could imagine. "Well are you ready to record together?" Nick asked me. "Well yeah!" I smiled. He grabbed my hand and pulled me back into the recording studio. "Wait! I don't know what we are singing!" I looked at him curiously. "Well, we are going to do a duet version of Please Be Mine. I figured it was exactly how our relationship is." He said all cute. "I love you, Nick." "I love you too, Lindsey." What we didn't know was that they guy who controled when we were recording, he recorded us telling eachother I love you. It was the perfect intro to our song.

CHAPTER 42

Please be mine. We finished our song, and it sounded amazing! After the guy flipped off the recording switch I screamed and hugged him! "I never thought that I would actually get to record a song! And especially with you!" I was so excited! "I am so happy we got to record together too, babe! I love you!" "I love you too!" I said as I gave him a quick kiss. We walked out of the studio and got in the limo. After we were situated I saw my phone, and it had about a bagillion missed calls and texts! Oops! The majority of them were from Meg and Lexi asking how the date was going. A few was from Sammi and Matt. And then there was a number that I didn't know who it was. I didn't say anything to Nick, because I knew how protective of me he was. But the text said, I miss you, and regret everything. I want to see you again. I had a very bad feeling that this was Steven. There was also a missed call and voicemail from the same number. So I dialed my voicemail and listened to the message. "Lindsey! I am so sorry for everything that I have done to you! I am such a terrible person! I just love you, and love makes me crazy sometimes! I'm sorry. I am so so sorry. Can we just meet somewhere please? And talk? I know that you and me are meant to be. We always have, and we always will. Please call me back. Alright...bye." It was Steven. I had no regret deleting that voicemail, text, and missed calls. Steven was out of my life for good. I had someone that truly cared about me now, and nothing would ever change that!

CHAPTER 43-the follow up.

The song that I recorded ended up getting big! Nick sent it to the producers at Hollywood Records and they loved it! They gave me an album! That song, as well as the song we recorded together was featured on the album. I opened for the boys on their next tour, which highly promoted my music! Thankfully, I was already used to the media, so I didn't have any problems with that! Now that I was making money, I was able to fly out to see Sammi and Matt if I had time between shows. I still missed Mom, but it was getting easier and easier with the amazing people I had in my life. The Jonas's became my family, and I was perfectly happy with that! Lexi and Meghan came on tour with us for about a week, and when we weren't together, we were always txing and calling eachother. Me and Nick were as happy as could be! Steven would occasionally call me, wanting me back, but it would never happen. I was truly in love with the most amazing guy in the world, and nothing would ever change that!!!

THE END!